Working on It

Last night, I allowed myself to react to comments left on an online posting about Gawker’s release of George Bush’s telephone number.  I loathe George Bush and hold him personally responsible for launching an illegal and devastating war in Iraq, among other things.  But Gawker’s childish response to the 10-year anniversary to the attack on Iraq was stupid.

When I read the comments, both those which skewered Bush and those which praised him, I got angry.  Neither group of neanderthals knows the full story, but both groups act like they do.  I was especially pissed off at an imbecile who, using a fake name, called by utterly despicable names anyone who took issue with his perspective.

And I allowed it to make me angry.

Now, I’m angry at myself for allowing it to happen.  But I’m working on it.

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It Pays to Call Foul

Tom Thumb Pharmacy reacted to my complaint about the cost of a prescription.  I had complained about paying about $75 for a 30-day supply of a prescription drug, only to find I could get a 30-day for $11 (or $28 for a 90-day supply) at Costco.

I got a call from the regional pharmacy manager, who said the local pharmacy manager would match the Costco price and refund the difference on the prescription I’d already bought.

Today, I went to the pharmacy to see about the refund.  I got it, but the pharmacy manager was obviously not thrilled about it.  But I am.  I got about $55 refunded to my credit card.  I will not shop at Tom Thumb pharmacy, though, because their price adjustment simply proved to me that their price was, indeed, obscenely overpriced.  But I appreciate the fact that they responded to a customer complaint.  If they would adjust their pricing structure, abandoning the greed model, they might actually earn my business…and the business of others.

It pays to call foul when you’re being ripped off.

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Bad Poetry

Bad poetry smothers empathy with a pillow of ill-formed phrases.

Bad poetry digests the imagination the way a snake eats a rat.

Bad poetry causes people to drown tires and slash kittens.

Bad poetry leads to spiritual poverty and financial ruin.

Bad poetry repeats themes and screams phrases.

I am an expert; I write bad poetry.

 

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Be It Resolved…

I was thinking today, as I sometimes do, about various things of major and lesser import.  Among those things was this: I made no New Year’s resolutions for 2013.  Not that it’s unusual for me; I rarely make New Year’s resolutions, for 2013 or any other year.  But this year, it’s different.  This year, I need to make some changes.  I’ve allowed myself to deviate from some good habits and to adopt some bad ones, so it’s time for a few changes.  Here are some of the more significant ones:

  • Before the month of March spills into April, I will adopt a regular regimen of walking…significant walking, with enough energy and speed and regularity to do good things for my cardio-vascular system and my weight.
  • No later than I return to walking, I will swear off booze, except for no more than 3 beers per week inasmuch as I plan to make beer (or ale or stout).
  • Each and every day, I will make a point of doing something that’s hard for me to do…I know what I mean, even if others reading these words may not.
  • Using diet and exercise and discipline, I will make steady and irrevocable progress toward at least reaching my preliminary target weight of less than 170 pounds.

There are plenty of other things I need to change.  I’m old enough now to change.  I’m nearly 60.  Until now, I was a mere child who could without guilt be self-centered and semi-irresponsible.  When one reaches 60, some of that irresponsibility must erode, only to be replaced with other things.  The question, of course, is…what?

Well, it wouldn’t be beyond reasonable to replace at least a little of my irreverence with something a little more solemn, don’t you think?

Time will tell.  It always does.

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A Breather

The music and lyrics to a tune from my youth, A Place in the Sun by Pablo Cruise, have been on my mind lately; I can’t get them out of my mind.

Well everybody’s heart needs a holiday, some time
And everyone of us needs to get away, some how
Some laughing light hearted moods
Oh, sight seeing afternoons
And telling a joke or two
Cause everyday invites you to find your place in the sun.

I figure this  Pablo Cruise earworm has a connection to my recent obsession with serenity.  Absence makes the heart grow obsessive, I guess.

Despite the fact that my days are not frenetic, my brain seems to think they are.  There’s always something I need to know, someone I want read about, some thing calling out for my attention.  One of those things is Facebook.  So I think maybe it’s time for a break from Facebook.  The last time I took a break from Facebook, I felt like a weight lifted off of me.  I spent more time here, writing about what were, to me, the more important things on my mind.  I spent less time sharing my taste in music or poetry with people, many of whom I have never met in person, who may or may not care what music or poetry I like.  I spent less time spouting off about political firestorms I found offensive.

Serenity eludes me, even for a few moments, when I attach a sense of urgency to something unimportant.  Yet I allow myself to treat both the mindless drivel and the many interesting, positive things on Facebook as important and/or urgent.  Serenity is elusive amid the noise and chatter.

It’s not just Facebook. It’s news that isn’t news but, rather, just reporting.  It’s the rush of traffic on nearby streets.  Whether they’re off to work or off to the mall, people drive as if their destinations matter…as if something urgently important awaits them.  Serenity suffers.

Of course, an unsuccessful pursuit of serenity cannot be blamed entirely on external forces, nor entirely on one’s reactions to them.  I can blame it on…or trace it back to…my own inability or unwillingness to focus.

With these thoughts in mind, I may forego Facebook for a while.  I’ll see how disciplined I am.  The last time I withdrew from Facebook, I did it by deactivating my account, which crippled my ability to play some words games I enjoyed.  This time, if I forego Facebook, it will be purely a matter of discipline.

I will devote more time to writing about what’s on my mind, not simply reacting in words to the world around me. We’ll see.

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Serenity

It’s not an infatuation with the Buddha, it’s an infatuation with the concept of serenity. That’s what draws me to these images. That’s why I bought the wooden wall hanging. That’s why I’d like to have the large  cast concrete figure for my yet-to-be-created serenity garden.  Of course, it does seem a bit ironic to have a rather frenetic obsession with serenity, doesn’t it?

BuddhaHead2

BuddhaHead

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The Best Laid Plans

A huge number of bricks was the first acquisition of my evolving plan to do some work to my backyard, with the intent of turning it into a wonderful oasis of stress relief and happiness. I paid $12 for what was advertised on Craigslist as “about 150 bricks.” The actual count was 382.

Bricks_plan

Next up, I bought a LOT of stone for a very low price. My original intent was to buy stone to use as a border for the beds in the front yard, but upon seeing them (another Craigslist find), I decided they might not be suitable for the border, but SURELY I could find another use for them, considering the really good price. So, I bought them…two VERY heavy truckloads of stone are now awaiting their place in my evolving plan.

Stones_plan

Considering that I would soon have a brick pad and perhaps a stone pad or wall, I needed something fitting to put on or near them, right? So, as a friend and I were chatting over coffee one day, she mentioned that she was trying to sell the BBQ smoker her late husband used to make his wonderful ribs and brisket, etc. She would have no room for it in her new place, she said. Well, it’s something I’ve ALWAYS wanted and as the two photos below show, I bought it from her and put in in my back yard.

Smoker_front_plan

Smoker_back_plan

Unfortunately, as I was driving home with the smoker in the bed of my truck, I spaced out a bit. My friend, who was helping move the INCREDIBLY heavy smoker said to me…”stop sign…Stop Sign…STOP SIGN.” I finally realized I was in the process of running a stop sign and hit my brakes rather hard, sending the smoker crashing into the piece of plywood I had placed in front of it to protect the back window of the truck in the extremely unlikely event of a hard stop. It didn’t protect the back window.

What you see below is a brand-new 3-piece window that was installed just this morning. The bargains I got on the bricks, the stone, and the smoker were instantly erased. Fortunately, neither of us suffered any significant injuries (though my friend got a sliver of glass lodged in his thumb when the back window exploded into the car). My pride, though, was badly damaged, as was my bank account.

NewWindo

Next up, my friend and I may jointly buy the equipment and ingredients to make beer. I’ll leave the driving to him, though.

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Raw Emotion

It’s late, for me. Just after 11:30 pm. That’s late for me. But I’m not ready to go to sleep. I’m listening to music. Music has captured my soul this evening. I’m not sure just why, but it has. Tonight, my emotions are unmasked and public. Right here, in full view. I will regret my public display of emotion, I suspect. But I’ll get over the regret. Tonight, the tears and raw emotions are exactly what I need. I guess. Maybe.

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A Renaissance of Sardines

A recent conversation with my wife led me to discover a wonderful new way to enjoy one of my favorite foods: canned sardines.

She asked, innocently enough, if I’d ever had a sardine sandwich.  Perhaps she wondered about it because she noticed I had gotten into a bit of a sardine-consumption rut.  That rut involves opening a can of sardines in olive oil, placing said sardines on a small plate, and consuming them alongside sliced tomatoes, sliced cucumbers, crackers, and hot sauce.

I said I did not recall whether I had ever enjoyed such a meal, but could imagine a sardine sandwich involving canned sardines, black rye or pumpernickel bread, and a nice hot sauce.

Regardless of the motive behind her question, that’s all it took for me to explore the possibilities.    I scoured dozens of online articles and recipes involving sardines, looking first for information about sardine sandwiches.

It seems sardines once were extremely popular, the way tuna is today. Sardines were common fare in restaurants all over the U.S.  Both fresh and canned, they were well-liked and frequently-eaten by a large portion of the population, fresh-caught being especially popular along the coasts.   Sardines’ fall from public favor began in the 50s, when corporate purveyors of tuna began to employ factory trawlers to catch and process them.  Tuna salad became popular because tuna was cheaper than sardines and tasted less like fish.  “Fishy” tasting foods, apparently, lost the appeal they once had.  The diminution of sardines’ appeal coincided, as well, with a period of homogenization of U.S. culture; “ethnic” dishes (and sardines were seen as such, due in part to the ethnic fishermen who caught them) were viewed as foods for the lower classes.

Today, sardines are enjoying a bit of a renaissance in upscale restaurants.  The old-world Mediterranean style of preparing them, grilled over hot coals and sprinkled with sea salt and lemon juice, seems to be the most common way of serving them. That’s the way I had them years ago during a visit to Portugal; vendors sold them in crowded alleys just off main thoroughfares in Lisbon.  Later, during a trip to Croatia, they were served the same way for lunch on a sightseeing day-cruise out of Dubrovnik (grilling on the deck of the boat!).

I love canned sardines just as much as fresh ones.  It’s far easier to find canned sardines and they are much, much less expensive than fresh.  My wife’s innocent question got me exploring different ways of eating them.  I found a LOT of ways to eat sardines.  I’ve only just begun to try them; this post was prompted by my breakfast this morning, the recipe for which follows:

Sardines and Grits
Combine the following:

  • One can of skinless and boneless sardines packed in olive oil, broken up for mixing with the remaining ingredients
  • One cup of cooked grits
  • 3 tablespoons of diced canned tomatoes (I used a can that contains habanero peppers, which added some flavor and zip to the dish)
  • 2 tablespoons of chopped black olives

Heat the mixture for a minute or so in the microwave (everything else except the grits is cold).  Add hot sauce and a squeeze of fresh lemon juice at the table.

Oh my god!  This has to be one of my all-time favorite breakfast meals!  I seriously doubt I’ll find it in any restaurant in Dallas, and probably not anywhere else in the state of Texas…and maybe no other state…but I don’t know why!

Oh, back to the sandwiches.  I found literally dozens and dozens of recipes for sardine sandwiches, many of them intended to be of the open-faced variety and eaten with a knife and fork.  I may try those styles, but first I will begin with these (not yet eaten, but soon will be):

Sardine-Avocado (Sardicado) Sandwich (inspired by someone’s adaptation of an Alton Brown recipe…I hope my version is good…can’t wait to try it)

  • 2 (3.75-ounce) cans of sardines in olive oil
  • 2 tablespoons finely chopped parsley
  • 1 tablespoon vinegar
  • Zest from one lemon, and the leftover lemon cut into 4 wedges
  • Freshly ground black pepper
  • 4 slices dark rye bread
  • 1 ripe avocado
  • Sea salt
  1. Drain the oil from 1 can of sardines into a small bowl and set aside.
  2. Drain the oil from the second can into another small bowl and mix it with 1 tablespoon of parsley, vinegar, lemon zest, and black pepper. Add the sardines and stir. Let sit for a bit to let the flavors combine.
  3. Toast bread.
  4. Halve the avocado pulverize the flesh in each half with a fork. Spread the avocado evenly onto the toasted bread, then top with a scoop of the sardine mixture.
  5. Pour any remaining sardine oil dressing on top and garnish with the remaining parsley.
  6. Season with sea salt and a squeeze from the lemon wedges.
  7. This should make two sandwiches…I think.

And here’s another adapted version I plan to try soon…more “traditional,” I think:

Sardines on Rye Sandwich

  • 2 TBL Dijon mustard
  • 2 slices dark rye bread, toasted
  • 1 large leaf of lettuce (whatever type you have on hand)
  • 1 small can sardines in oil, drained, plus 2 tsp. reserved oil
  • 1/4 small yellow onion, thinly sliced crosswise
  • Kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper, to taste
  1. Spread mustard evenly over each slice of bread; Put sardines, onions, and lettuce on one slice of bread.
  2. Drizzle with reserved oil, and season with salt and pepper.
  3. Place other slice of bread on top and eat the sandwich!
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Wannabe’s Block

These last few days, my attempts to put nascent thoughts into writing withered and crept into corners to die.  Like the slime trail of a snail, they leave unpleasant evidence.  Follow the trail and, at the end, their corpses litter the places my mind went.

An hour and a half ago, at just a minute past four o’clock, I awoke with a sense that the time had come; I would gather my thoughts and coherently relay them to the page.  Ninety minutes later, that sense has passed….make that 120 minutes later.  Three incoming calls on my fax interrupted me.  That interruption led me to other distractions.  Another thirty minutes without transferring words from my brain to the page.

I would say I have writer’s block.  If I were a writer.

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Last Tears

You think you’ve seen and felt the pain of loneliness?  No, you haven’t.

Real loneliness can be felt only at that very last moment, the breath that won’t be taken again.  It’s only then that mortality becomes real.  And by then, it doesn’t matter whether you’ve seen and understood it.  By then, it doesn’t matter.

The tears of regret don’t last long. Unless you shed them long before that last moment.  I guess we all do, don’t we?

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The Old Sculptor

Each time the heavy hammer hit the stone, sharp shards of splintered rock and dust erupted from the strike point. With each swing, he adjusted his stance and the direction of the hammer’s blow ever so slightly.  That tiny adjustment sent the spray of granite a few inches to the right of the last eruption.  With every eighth strike, an almost perfect circle of dust and chipped rock formed around the target of his relentless attack, the central piece of stone.

Three second lapsed between the time his hammer struck the boulder and the next strike…just  three seconds to pull the big hammer back over his shoulder, tense his back and stomach muscles, and swing the long wooden handle through the air for another attack.  Every twenty-four seconds, he rounded his target,  leaving a sparkling dust circle one sixteenth of an inch deep as evidence of his efforts.

He paused to rest for two or three minutes after seven minutes of swinging his hammer.  Each time he stopped, he looked down at the circular ring, just over an inch deeper in grit and powdered rock than it had been when last he rested.   And each time, the massive granite stone that shook with every blow of his hammer looked a little more like the figure he saw buried within the rock.  Only he could see that figure, for now, but it wouldn’t be long until others could see it, as well.

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I Forgot I Didn’t Have Amnesia…But…the Dream

UPDATE: After my wife woke up, I told her about what I had written. Her memory is better than mine.  My comments at the end reflect the original version; the revised and corrected information in the body of the post reflects her correction.

Had my mind not intervened when it did, you might have been reading this post and wondering what might be causing my recurring amnesia. Fortunately, I realized the word I was planning to use didn’t sound quite right; I intended to complain about my recurring insomnia.  So, instead, you may wonder why I have been dealing with sleeplessness, as do I.  I trust there really is no relationship between the two troublesome conditions.

I’ve never had amnesia, at least not that I recall, but I’ve had the occasional bout of insomnia.  The frequency of finding myself in a state of sleeplessness in the wee hours of the morning has been growing of late, which is a tad annoying.  Though it has not had nasty after-effects that I’ve noticed, I’m a bit concerned they will begin to manifest themselves if my too-often-awake-in-the-middle-of-the-night situation goes on for long.  Before that were to happen, I would take steps to address the issue, of course, though I don’t know just what those steps would be.  That’s what Google and Bing are for, to facilitate medical self-diagnosis and treatment.

My assumption is that my recent experience of severe and recurring nosebleeds are unrelated to my insomnia.  I actually broke down and visited a doctor about the nosebleeds, inasmuch as they were so utterly out of character for me; I had awful ideas that the underlying cause of the nosebleeds was my brain being ripped to shreds by out-of-control sinus infections.  My doctor reassured me that he found nothing wrong, other than a moderate sinus inflammation.  He prescribed a short term regimen of Sudafed PE and Xyrtec.  I bought much cheaper substitutes with the same active ingredients.

My assumption, too, is that my insomnia has nothing whatsoever to do with any sense of  hopelessness and despair.  It couldn’t be caused by the fact that humankind has not found, nor will it ever find, a reasonable way to live in harmony on, or off, this planet.  No, that couldn’t be it.  And it is almost certainly unrelated to a chilling realization that all life comes to an end and leaves no trace of meaning and value in its wake.

This morning’s incident of malapropism brought to mind a similar incident for which the wrong word was used several years ago.  Fortunately, I was not the offending malaproportionist at the time.  Two colleagues and I were sitting in the Albuquerque, New Mexico airport, waiting for a flight back to Dallas.  One of the two of them kept apologizing for his yawning, saying he was about to fall asleep.  Finally, he said something to the effect that “I have a really bad case of necrophilia.”  My other colleague and I immediately burst into uncontrollable fits of laughter.  The offending malaproportionist (that’s my own personal neologism, thank you) was utterly confused.  He was, that is, until I was able to explain, between fits of convulsive laughter, that he had just told us he had a bad case of being erotically attracted to corpses the night before.  He had intended to say he had a bad case of narcolepsy.  I’ve never seen anyone so instantly turn so beet red.

It has now been about four hours since I first awoke, though I remained in bed for another hour or more.  And I actually did get back to sleep for a bit, long enough to have a bizarre dream.

I dreamed my wife and I were trying to follow my nephew and his wife, who were driving our car to the airport, out of a parking garage near downtown Dallas.  My wife had rented a tiny car that we intended to return when we got to the airport and drive our car home.  When I say tiny, I mean tiny.  It was small enough that I was able to sling it over my shoulder as we walked up and down the stairs from one level of the parking garage to the next, looking for an exit.  I was upset with the size of the car.  It had barely enough space for both my feet.  The brake pedal and accelerator kept folding and unfolding as I had tried to use them to drive to find the exit, which is why we used the stairs.  Apparently, my nephew drove away; I assumed he was on the way to the airport.

My wife and I called out to people walking out of the garage on the level below us, asking for directions, but they ignored us.  Just as we found what appeared to be an exit toward the freeway, we ran into a large group of people, who appeared to be emergency personnel, wearing bright yellow and orange suits.  I asked if we were headed in the right direction.  One man responded that he did not have time, as they had an emergency to deal with.  Behind him was one of their own, sitting on what appeared to be a throne that was being carried by more men dressed in orange and yellow.  We made our way past them and I saw that there were train tracks ahead of us.  A light rail train was arriving at the outdoor station in front of us, but there were chain link fences between us and the station…and the exit to the freeway was beyond the station.  And then I think I woke up, though something tells me there was more to the situation than I remember.  I have no idea whether we got to the airport, nor why my wife had rented a fold-up toy car, nor why my nephew was driving our car.

I wonder whether my inability to remember more of the dream is a sign of amnesia or just another symptom of insomnia gone astray?

NOTE: Here is the original version of the paragraph I’ve marked in italics above. The paragraph above is correct…the one that follows is not.  My wife corrected my memory after she woke up and heard me tell the story again:

This morning’s incident of malapropism brought to mind a similar incident for which the wrong word was used in place of insomnia several years ago.  Fortunately, I was not the offending malaproportionist at the time.  Two colleagues and I were sitting in the Albuquerque, New Mexico airport, waiting for a flight back to Dallas.  One of the two of them kept apologizing for his yawning.  Finally, he said something to the effect that “I had a really bad case of necrophilia last night.”  My other colleague and I immediately burst into uncontrollable fits of laughter.  The offending malaproportionist (that’s my own personal neologism, thank you) was utterly confused.  He was, that is, until I was able to explain, between fits of convulsive laughter, that he had just told us he had a bad case of being erotically attracted to corpses the night before.  I’ve never seen anyone so instantly turn so beet red.

 

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A Cheery Socio-Political Diatribe

I have long since abandoned the misconception that world governments and the media are sources of reliable information.   Instead, I have come to the conclusion that public statements from each of those two elements of “civilized society” are far more likely, upon close analyses, to reveal their self-serving motives and the sources of their power and financial strength.  And, as the saying goes, “actions speak louder than words,” so regardless of what governments and the media say, their behaviors frequently are even more revealing than their precisely spun statements.

One need look only as far as Fox News to see an unabashedly biased media outlet feeding at the trough of is source of strength and sustenance.  But lest my liberal friends pound their chests as they join my attack on right-wing misinformation factories, let me suggest that a truly unbiased viewing of MSNBC, CNN, and others will reveal what an only slightly less slanted, though decidedly left-leaning perch.  Nor can one look outside the U.S. with the expectation that sources of news and information will more closely represent the “truth” than their U.S. counterparts.  Al Jazeera, whose website I have long since decided may be less biased than its U.S. CNN cousin, frequently is unsuccessful in hiding its bias.

A friend this morning mentioned Chavez and Venezuela.  There’s more evidence of media and governmental manipulation of “facts” there.  Take a look at the online “independent website produced by individuals who are dedicated to disseminating news and analysis about the current political situation in Venezuela,” at http://venezuelanalysis.com/ and decide just how “independent” the site really is.

And let’s not forget that these “news” sites frequently are poorly-disguised mouthpieces of governments they support, and that support them.  Take a look at the CIA Factbook and you’ll find a vast pool of misinformation masquerading as “fact.” Back to Venezuela, here is what the CIA Factbook says about that country, in its “background’ statement:

Current concerns include: a weakening of democratic institutions, political polarization, a politicized military, rampant violent crime, overdependence on the petroleum industry with its price fluctuations, and irresponsible mining operations that are endangering the rain forest and indigenous peoples.;

Compare that with the nuanced way in which the CIA describes our own U.S.A.:

Buoyed by victories in World Wars I and II and the end of the Cold War in 1991, the US remains the world’s most powerful nation state. Since the end of World War II, the economy has achieved relatively steady growth, low unemployment and inflation, and rapid advances in technology.

While one could argue that both statements are correct, there are plenty of people who are not driven by political agendas and provincial motives who would argue vehemently against them. I am no apologist for Hugo Chavez, but I seriously doubt that the maniac depicted by U.S. politicians and U.S. news sources exists. There’s no question he is driven by a Marxist/socialist vision, but that does not translate into the personification of evil. But I have to question whether statements made by Chavez can be believed; after all, during a speech to the U.N. a few years ago, he claimed George Bush was the “devil” and said he could still smell the sulphur left by Bush’s presence at the lectern. (I will admit my own bias here; I rather enjoyed that attack on Bush.)

It’s not all about the U.S. and its principale South American antagonist. Look at media reports and politically-motivated statements of “fact” coming out of Russia, the Middle East, western Africa…everywhere…and there are indications that the “truth” being delivered by the media and the governments toward which they are supposedly working to lift the veil of lies is simply spin.

I don’t trust any of them. And I don’t know what’s true. And I don’t think I will ever be allowed to know reality. That disturbs me, but it doesn’t surprise me. Lies are the stuff of revolution. Government and the media are, then, revolutionaries in the making. Revolutions engender more lies. What a bleak, bleak, bleak way to look at the world. But what other way is there?

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Too Little Sleep

I wonder what it is that dashes expectations and wishes on the rocks?  Whatever crushes those crucial components of hope should be incinerated.  None of us need such oppression.

But here we are.  My mood proves to me that, on good days, even joy can be smothered for no apparent reason.

I want so desperately to expect humankind to advance in fundamental ways, but I cannot fuse that desire into reality.

I’ve been awake for nearly 16 hours now.  Maybe my mood is being ground into  reality in ways that prevent me from suspending reality.  Ahh, crud.  Would that we all could kiss and make up and be good, if only for awhile.

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Questions with no Answers

Perhaps the solitude does it.  The deepest, darkest hours of the night may unearth questions otherwise buried under the daytime rubble of incomplete thoughts and hurried conversations.  Regardless of their genesis, the questions tend to arise when I awaken many hours before sunrise.  Today, it was not yet 3:00 a.m. when I awoke and it was just a quarter after when I decided sleep would elude me.  I left the warmth of the bed, venturing first into the kitchen, then to the guest bedroom that serves as my study.  And then the questions began to come.

Is language utterly inadequate to describe humanity?  Does the complexity of individual humans’ interactions with one another, with themselves, with the environments in which they live, and with the worlds outside their views and beyond their comprehension render language unable to describe humanity, even in the broadest of terms?

If you were asked to “describe humanity,” could you do it?  Is the universe just too complex for any language to be up to the task?  Each person on earth is stunningly complex; an endless string of words can never fully describe that person.  Why, then, would we expect language to serve us when we ask it to describe not just an individual, but billions upon billions of individuals?

We think we know the world around us, yet we cannot even begin to fully explain one individual, not even ourselves. These thoughts lead me back to one of my favorite quotations: I know everything except myself ~ François Villon (a French poet, thief, and vagabond who lived in the early 1400s).  Perhaps it is only ourselves language cannot describe.  Perhaps we can describe, maybe even explain, humanity.  We just cannot explain, on an individual basis, who we are and why.

So, two hours after I awoke, I have succeeded only in suggesting responses to questions with no answers.

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Road Trip to Florida

We (my wife, Janine, and I) spent the last fourteen days, more or less, on the road.  The destination was Florida, where my wife’s high school friend now lives.  The first day on the road, a Sunday, we drove about 425 miles—from Dallas, Texas to Jackson, Mississippi.  We stopped for lunch in Marshall, Texas at the Cajun Tex Restaurant, which turned out to be a pretty decent spot for oyster po-boys and such.

Our gracious host sitting with my wife.

While in Jackson, we stayed with an interesting guy who’s an acquisitions editor for a university press.  He’s in his mid-thirties and has reached the point, after a long and successful stint as an editor, of determining whether he’s happy with his present course or whether he’s ready to jump into something different. I enjoyed conversing with him; I plan to stay in touch with him from time to time.  We connected with the guy through a couch-surfing website.

RuchiAs a token of our appreciation for his hospitality, we brought him a bottle of Texas wine and a six-pack of Rahr’s Ugly Pug, a favorite beer of mine brewed in Fort Worth.  We also bought him dinner at an Indian restaurant he recommended, Ruchi India.  I was highly impressed with the food.  I was particularly impressed with the fact that they offered a dish I have not seen offered at any of the many Indian restaurants we frequent in Dallas: goat vindaloo.  It was exceptional!

I first learned of “formal” couch-surfing from my friend, Bev, who had recommended it to me after learning that I had a desire to take long road trips but limited funds for lodging along the way.  She suggested I check out a website, couchsurfing.org, where I learned quite a lot about it. When we began the trip to Florida, we had already hosted a few couch-surfers in our home and had decided we wanted to participate in the other side of the equation by being hosted.  My motive in wanting to couch-surf had morphed from one of saving money to one of meeting interesting people.  Rather than stay in a predictably-decorated roadside motel, we wanted to stay in a real-world environment and have the opportunity to meet real-world people.

After one night in Jackson, we drove another 440 miles to Tallahassee, Florida, where we had hoped to couch-surf with another host.  That was not to be.  I made only two contacts, neither of whom responded immediately to accept or reject my request to be hosted.  One of them, though, responded a day or two later, apologizing for the late reply but explaining that she had been camping and out-of-touch for a few days…and she offered to host us on our way out of Florida.  Absent a couch-surfing host, we stayed overnight in a Best Western in Tallahassee.

DewDropInnOn the road to Tallahassee, we stopped in Mobile, AL to have lunch in an old diner, the Dew Drop Inn. It’s said that Jimmy Buffet’s affection for burgers was born at the Dew Drop Inn (see this link, which also references the Camelia Grill in New Orleans, where we had breakfast one day last September).  The Dew Drop Inn advertises itself as the oldest restaurant in Mobile (see the photo of its sign).  With all due respect to Jimmy Buffet and all who hold the place near and dear, I was not overly impressed with my burger.  For one thing, it was tiny and flat.  For another, the meat was overcooked.  My wife liked her hot dog, though, so the place succeeded in making for a happy lunch.

Dinner in Tallahassee was not a wonderful event.  We ate at a tired little place called Foody’s near our motel.  Foody’s takes its place on my “avoid at all costs” list.

After our night in Tallahassee, we got on Florida 19 south for the 220 mile trip to Spring Hill, Florida, where my wife’s friend lives.  We dawdled along the way and took a bit of a detour to Steinhatchee, Florida, where we had a pretty decent lunch at Roy’s Restaurant.

We arrived in Spring Hill well before dinner time and spent time chatting with my wife’s friends.  Inasmuch as they are private people who don’t blog, Facebook, etc., I will not use their names and photos in this post.  Suffice it to say we enjoyed our many days with them.

Juan and me, toasting with an absinthe!

A friend of mine, who I’d never met in person but had communicated with electronically for quite some time, lives a bit south of our Spring Hills hosts.  I had been in touch with him before our trip to arrange a visit.  On Friday morning, we drove 40 minutes to his place, arriving about 11:00 a.m.  We spent a good five hours visiting; it was really great to get to know him in person!  He cooked for us, served me beer and wine and absinthe (Janine was the designated driver on the return north), and generally treated us as honored guests! He even gave me a French press coffee maker when I commented about it, saying it was an extra one he did not use.  I invited him to visit us; I hope I can show him the same hospitality he showed us.

A day or two earlier, I learned from a friend’s Facebook post that she was in Florida for a meeting.  Through a series of private messages back and forth, I learned that she was in the Tampa Bay area and that, after her meeting, she would be spending the weekend with her parents, who live in Spring Hill, before returning home to Seattle.  What a coincidence!  So, we arranged to meet for breakfast on Saturday morning.  There she is, sitting across the table from Janine and me, at the Breakfast and Lunch Nook in Spring Hill!

After a nice visit with Dana, we headed down to Tarpon Springs, just a few miles south.  Tarpon Springs is well-known for its sponge boats, which line the marina along Dodecanese Avenue in the Sponge Docks District.  The town has the highest percentage of Greek Americans of any city in the U.S.; during our visit, we overhead many conversations in Greek among groups of old men, who I imagine had once been employed in the sponge industry.  After walking up and down Dodecanese Avenue, visiting seafood markets and shops here and there, we stopped for lunch at Hella’s Bakery and Restaurant, where I had good gyros and Janine had a bowl of excellent avgolemono soup.

Janine listening to the self-guided tour audio at the Dali.

The next day, we drove from Spring Hill down to St. Petersburg for a visit, first, to the beach and then to the Dali Museum.  The museum is situated next to a marina and across the street from the Albert Whitted Airport.  Though I’ve never been a fan of Dali’s work, there is no question (in my mind) that he was a creative genius.  Janine bought a mug that includes an image of the Dali piece entitled “Gala Contemplating the Mediterranean Sea Which at 20 Meters Becomes the Portrait of Abraham Lincoln.” While his work won’t hang in my home (as if I could afford to buy any of it), I admire his bizarre creativity.  However, I did buy a set of 20 paper cocktail napkins (for $1.00) bearing a Dali quote in multiple languages, as shown in the image below.DaliQuote

After the museum visit, we crossed the street to the airport, where we had lunch at the Hangar Restaurant and Flight Lounge. Considering the fact that the restaurant was not billed as a great place to eat, I was surprised that the food was quite decent.  We left the restaurant with the intent of getting on the tollway back to Spring Hill, but a few wrong turns took us a long, long way out of our way. Eventually, we found our way to the tollway and ultimately to Spring Hill.

Somewhere along the line (the days began to blur…not sure just when we did this), we headed out to visit the Homassasa Springs State Wildlife Park, just a few miles north of Spring Hill.  The park is almost entirely “native Florida,” in both flora and fauna, with one exception.  That exception is a 53-year-0ld hippopotamus that had lived in the park before the state bought the parkland; though the state planned to make it a 100% native Florida park, local residents banded together to save the hippo from being sent away and it was granted permanent Florida citizenship by the then-governor so it could stay in the park.  We saw roseate spoonbills, flamingos, a bear, a cougar, a manatee, and numerous other beasts…all were in enclosures, unfortunately.

Another side trip to Hernando Beach revealed a beautiful coastline, attractive inlets (including one with a wild manatee loafing along in the shallows), and a nice little restaurant, called Leslie’s Bistro,  where we stopped for lunch.

KeyWestSunsetWe headed to Naples and Fort Myers Beach a week after we arrived in Spring Hill.  Janine’s friends have a time-share on Fort Myers Beach, which gives them the ability to rent a unit in the building at times outside their time-share arrangement (which our visit was).  They rented a unit where the four of us stayed for considerably less than it would have cost to rent a hotel room (the rates for which were $350 per night and up).  The morning after we arrived, we took the Key West Express ferry to visit Key West for part of the day.  We had originally hoped to stay in Key West for a day or two, but the prices of hotel rooms were astronomical…if we go back, we’ll plan to visit in low season, after the snow-birds have returned to their nests.  The Key West sunsets are said to be among the most beautiful in the world; the view from the high-speed ferry during our return suggests  that’s true.

There’s more to record about the trip, but I’ll leave a few bits and pieces of the visit and details of our return trip to another post

 

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Early

It’s just after 6:00 am on a Sunday morning.  I’ve been awake for well over an hour.  While my wife slept in the hotel’s king bed, I showered and got dressed.  It must be my way of returning to normalcy.

Today, we drive to Houston to take my brother to breakfast.  With luck, my niece and her husband will join us.  Then, we’ll either head home or drift a little further west for one more night on the road.

This trip has cured my longing for life on the road in a small way but has strengthened it in another; hard to understand, much less write about.

The trip has been good.  I am ready to be home, though, so I can get ready to hit the road again.

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There Has Been Blood

For the fourth time in just over a week, I had a nosebleed this evening.  The very first one and this one were severe; both took over 20 minutes of “treatment” to conquer.  Though I have read about all sorts of possible causes, I have been able to rule out only a few; the rest range from possible to slightly more possible…none are obvious culprits.

Why my nose has chosen this particular week to become beligerent—a week dedicated to road-trips, couch surfing, visiting with friends, and other activities unsuited for mixing with nosebleeds— is beyond my comprehension. I shall have words with the proprietor at a time apropos for a heart-to-nose conversation.

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Couch Surfing, Mississippi Style

Last night, my wife and I had our first-ever experience as couch-surfers.  It was delightful.

Our host, a guy in his mid-thirties, was truly an interesting character. He is acquisitions editor for a university press, a position he has held for several years.  He has worked for the press since he graduated from college in 1999.  He’s a bit shy, but sufficiently capable of getting over his shyness that he is an interesting and entertaining conversationalist.  And he is an adventurous eater, always a good sign in my estimation.  After learning of my affinity for spicy foods, he suggested Indian.  We with to Ruchi Indian, an absolutely fabulous place in Jackson, MS.  I intended to order lamb vindaloo, one of my favorite Indian dishes, but when I ordered Ghost Vindaloo (their menu’s name for lamb vindaloo), I was asked if I’d prefer lamb or goat.  Oh my god!  Goat!  Yes!  And it was exceptional.

Our host originally is from Dallas, so I doubt he’ll need a place to stay when he returns to visit, but I offered our home anyway.  I’d love to have the opportunity to extend the same hospitality to him that he extended to us.

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Couch Surfing the Southern Route

As my wife and I began preparing for our trip to Florida, we discussed the possibility of finally doing some couch surfing.  While we’ve hosted other couch surfers, we have yet become guests of other hosts.  This morning, we decided to see if we could find willing hosts along the route as we make our way east.  Initially, we thought we’d drive only as far as Shreveport the first day, leaving late in the day and drifting slowly and leisurely eastward. However, our search of hosts in and around Shreveport revealed very few options, so I started looking farther east.

As I began checking the profiles of prospective hosts in Jackson, Mississippi, I found one that was immediately appealing to me.  He’s a young guy  in his mid-thirties, originally from Dallas, who is a book editor and writer.  The information on his profile page suggests to me he is a very intelligent guy with an interesting perspective.  After following some links from his profile page to his blog and his podcasts, I decided he would be a very interesting host…if he would be willing to accommodate us.

Only an hour or so after I sent him a request on www.couchsurfing.org, he responded that he would be happy to accommodate us!  So, our first experience as couch surfing guests will take place in Jackson, Mississippi.

Looking at the map, I decided I could make it the rest of the way to our initial Florida destination in one more day if I pushed, but I would rather not.  So, I started looking at couch surfing possibilities in the Tallahassee area.  I came across an interesting couple from India and sent them a request; no response yet, but we could always stay in a motel if necessary (and as we typically have done in the past).  But I’m excited about the prospect of meeting new people, especially new people who have radically different experiences than I.

 

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What to Do, What to Do…Well, Let’s Drive!

During the past several weeks, I’ve been contemplating what I will do to earn a living as my extended sabbatical slowly comes to an end. I’ve already extended my planned one year of leisure to fourteen months and am planning more “leisure-time” activities before the sabbatical ends. Despite my appreciation for my time off, I really will soon need to find a source of income that will coincide with a source of enjoyment and fulfillment. As I contemplate my work life future, I am exploring quite a number of possibilities.

My explorations of potential options have taken me down some interesting pathways. The three areas of interest that I have been exploring most seriously have been these: 1) food-related businesses; 2) businesses providing resources for seniors and the elderly; and 3) a public show involving real estate.

The food-related businesses I have been considering have included 1) creating and selling a line of salsas and sauces, which would involve contracting with a co-packaging company for production; 2) creating and selling a line of foods geared toward people with very specific medically necessary diets (e.g., renal diets, low roughage diets, etc.); 3) developing an easy-to-use resource for people who are on such medically necessary diets to help them find sources of foods and recipes, etc. they can use; and 4) creating and selling either ethnic food products (or recipes for them) that retain the wonderful flavors of ethnic foods while reducing their reliance on not-so-healthy ingredients (e.g., alternatives to high-calorie and high-carbohydrate ingredients).

I have not yet fleshed out the ideas for resources for seniors and the elderly.  It occurs to me that one of the best resources in these areas is my experience (though not elderly, I am a “senior” and have encountered a lot of issues unique to that status).  Then again, I have found that there are literally thousands of resources “out there” that may make yet another one I might create redundant.  But I sense there may be too much “out there” that is not easily accessed; perhaps my niche would be to bring order to a somewhat voluminous mass of near chaos.

The seeds of the concept for a public real estate show sprouted from the detritus of some tried-and-failed shows I came across while surfing the internet.  The story of how the idea began to gel is too long and boring to relate here, but the concept is essentially this: bring together the sellers/renters/leasers/developers of residential real estate of all kinds with prospective buyers, all in one place.  The sellers, et al, would be expected to bring valuable information about their communities and developments and homes that would educate prospective buyers about all aspects surrounding the real estate acquisition decision.  So, instead of buyers traipsing all over creation to find the right community, home, neighborhood, etc., they would learn the essentials of areas that most closely fit their ideals.  Then, they would narrow the field further by examining the residential options in those areas and only then would they make physical visits.  Conceptually, I like it.  Practically, I don’t know if it will work.  More assessment is needed.

Yet another few ideas have arisen of late, one of the most intriguing of which is the possibility of buying a new-on-the-market, but old, abandoned church in a town about sixty miles north of Dallas, investing in rehabbing it.  The purchase price for the property is a pittance, only about $50,000, but the cost to make it habitable would be at least $100,000.  But that investment of time and energy would yield a residence/residences or commercial property that has about 3,700 square feet of space.  A key consideration is that the property is in a small town that it not necessarily an economic powerhouse.  Would this rehabbed church contribute in some way to an economic resurgence of the town?  I don’t know.  The idea has enormous appeal to me, though.

But before I do these things, my wife and I have decided to take another road trip.  We’ll skirt along the southern U.S. (Louisiana, Mississippi, Alabama) into Florida, where we will visit friends on the west coast of the state.  Then, we’ll continue south and visit the Florida keys.  More on that as our plans develop.

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Harissa and Habanero

I have devoted considerable time this past week to food; I know, that’s extraordinarily surprising.  Sometimes, I get so wrapped up in food-related “stuff” that I forget to document it for future reference (you know, “what was that recipe for habanero salsa that we liked so much?).  So, I am documenting the high points here:

I made this wonderful stuff:

Harissa
Yield: about 1/2 cup

  • 15 dried arbol chiles
  • 3 dried guajillo chiles
  • 1 dried ancho chile
  • 8 – 12 cloves garlic, roughly chopped
  • 1/2 cup fresh cilantro leaves, roughly chopped
  • 1 Tbsp ground coriander
  • 1 Tbsp ground cumin
  • 1 Tbsp dried mint
  • 1 Tbsp kosher salt
  • juice of 1 lemon
  • 2 Tbsp olive oil
  1. In a medium bowl, combine 15 dried arbol chiles, 3 dried guajillo chiles, and 1 dried ancho chile, cover with boiling water, and soak until softened, about 30 minutes.
  2. Once the chiles are rehydrated, drain, reserving the soaking water. Remove the stems and seeds, and roughly chop.
  3. Using a blender, combine the chopped chiles with 8 – 12 cloves garlic, roughly chopped, 1/2 cup fresh cilantro leaves, roughly chopped, 1 Tbsp ground coriander, 1 Tbsp ground cumin, 1 Tbsp dried mint, 1 Tbsp kosher salt, and juice of 1 lemon, and blend until smooth, adding some of the reserved chile soaking water, as needed (I used three tablespoons).
  4. Add 2 Tbsp olive oil to form a thick paste. Put the paste into a bowl or jar and top with a thin layer of extra olive oil, and store in the refrigerator.  Every time you use it, make sure to cover the harissa with a bit of olive oil.

Habanero Salsa – John’s Version
Yield: About 2 cups

2 habanero peppers (recipe from which I adapted this called for 5 habanero peppers, which probably would be nicely spicy for me, but too much for Janine…this was a tad mild for my taste)
1/2 medium onion, finely chopped
1/3 cup cilantro, chopped
5 garlic cloves
1 dash black pepper
salt, to taste
1 can (14.5 oz.) tomatoes
1 teaspoon dried oregano
Directions:

  1. NOTE: Remove seeds from peppers and the sauce will be have some heat and a bit of afterburn, but not be too heat.
  2. Chop and combine all fresh ingredients. Add salt, pepper, oregano and tomatoes. Blend in food processor or blender until completely mixed.
  3. Cover and set in refrigerator for about 2 hours (or more).  This will allow flavors to blend.

 

 

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I am Not a Foodie

NoFoodieBoth my wife and I were seeking out unusual restaurants and opportunities to try all sorts of regional and ethic foods over 40 years ago, well before savvy marketers started driving up the prices of foods that once were under-appreciated or shunned.   Later, when society started catching up with our interests in these things, and the term “foodie” came into the popular vernacular, I adopted the term, thinking it was an appropriate descriptor for me with regard to all things edible.

But it seems to me the “foodie” culture has gone off the rails.  Rather than simply celebrating the joy that diverse foods bring to the table,  the “foodie” culture, I think, morphed into a means of demonstrating status, intellectual superiority, and economic might.  Though I appreciate Americans’ growing interest in a diverse diet, I loathe the manner in which marketers have turned that interest into a “foodie” culture that equates cost with quality and that rewards arrogance and greed.  Unique ingredients and the delightful foods that arise with their skilled use are not treasured simply for their aromas and tastes and textures.  Rather, they are treated as tools for building economic and social status.

The marketing minions of the “foodie” culture have successfully engrained in the popular psyche the sense that an appreciation of unique foods is the province of the wealthy intellectual elite.  Further, marketers ever-so-cleverly suggest it is possible to  join this elite class by buying into, figuratively and literally, the “foodie” culture. So, Central Market and Whole Foods Market and the growing legions of similarly-styled culinary temples are awash in worshippers eager to spend their way to greater glory.

Lest you think I am deriding a class of people to which I do not belong, people who have fallen victim to the food marketers’ wiles, I am not.  I shop at Central Market and Whole Foods Market, though each time I do I leave feeling as though I have been thoroughly fleeced.  I delight in finding sources of unusual spices and I buy expensive cuts of meat and I succumb to the temptation to overspend when I “buy local” from people whose profit margins are so high as to challenge payday loan makers as the leaders of immoral profiteering.  That having been said, though, I am working to wean myself from buying from people whose mission in life is to milk every last penny from every possible customer. I would be perfectly happy to buy all my groceries, including those things I now must buy from Central Market or Whole Food, from Kroger or Tom Thumb or (preferably) a local grocer if  they carried them.  I have no need to build my “foodie” credibility or demonstrate my financial strength by shopping at places whose stock and trade is as much in selling status as it is selling food.

My choices are to either: 1) accept being fleeced and being grouped with those who equate food diversity with intellectual and economic superiority; 2) stop supporting the madness by withdrawing from the church of culinary worship, thereby denying my epicurean pleasures; or 3) seeking out and supporting food stores and restaurants that eschew the “foodie” culture.  I’ve made my choice; I’ll go with number 3.  By that I mean I will make an active effort to support businesses that make reasonable profits on their products and that do not equate food with social or intellectual class.

I have no objection to businesses making a decent profit.  I have no objection to people wanting to associate themselves with others who have similar interests.  But I have objections to businesses making indecent profits.  And I object to people who attach extraordinary value to status and who attempt to hold themselves out as “better” than others who don’t share their interests or their economic “class.”

It is too bad that the “foodie” movement has morphed into what I consider an elitist social construct with little real connection to the joys of food.  Maybe the pendulum will swing back one day.  In the interim, I will continue to love trying new and exciting foods from places that have yet to join the “foodie” gravy train.

 

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Smoke Memories

When I was a child, things were different.  Life was hard, but kids learned the value of hard work, ingenuity, force, and fear.

My parents both worked in other states so they couldn’t take me to school.  We were poor and could not afford a bicycle, so the only option for me was to walk.  We lived sixteen miles away from the one-room school house, so in order to make my first class, which began at 6:00 a.m., my day began at 1:00 a.m.  After a quick shower, I’d get dressed and be out the door at 1:30 a.m. to do my chores: feed the chickens, milk the goats, make breakfast for the babies, and castrate strays.  Then, I’d leave the house for the walk to school at about 2:00 a.m.

There were no sidewalks and, for most of the way between my house and school, there were no roads.  The longest stretch of the path to school was along a river bed that was awash in quicksand in wet weather and, during the dry season, was littered with sharp rocks, broken glass, land mines, and scorpions.

It was a tough trek during the wet season, but the dry season was brutal, since I had no shoes.  I learned early on that the safest way to get through the dry season was to wear the sturdy pair of leather gloves my mother had given me.  It took two, maybe three, years before I could make it all the way to school walking on my hands.  Until I got good at it, my feet were a shredded mess by the time I got to my first class.

Our school day started at 6:00 a.m. with an hour of calisthenics.  After that, we hit the showers and then, at 7:15 a.m., started our first lesson.   In sixth grade, my first period class was differential calculus, followed by animal husbandry, and then 12th century Gaelic literature.  After a 15 minute break, I went to gene-splicing lab, then to my harmonic religion class. Because everyone was in the same room, it was hard to focus.  While I was trying to listen to the teacher talk about polymorphic geometry, for example, I had to listen to her teaching Spanish. At the same time, some people were in shop class and it was hard to hear over the noise of the table saws and metal grinders.

In those days, oxygen was expensive.  We couldn’t afford to have oxygen in the air, so we made do with helium, instead, which made it hard to understand what the teachers were saying.  They sounded like cartoon ducks.  You can’t imagine how hard it is to learn differential calculus in that setting…listening to listen to a duck voice over the sound of band saws and loud Spanish conversations.

When school let out at 6:30 p.m. I’d walk down to Tiny’s Laundry, where I had a part-time job.  Tiny owned two big washers and a dryer and it was my job to fill the washers with the day’s take and then, when the bills were clean, put all the bills in the dryer and monitor them closely so they got good and dry but didn’t burn.  Then, I’d iron each one so it was crisp and clean and neatly stack them all in $1000 batches.  As I said, it was a part-time job, so it only took me about two hours a day, but by the time I’d finished, I was terribly tired.  That didn’t matter, though, because I had to walk home.

When the moon was full, the walk home was a little easier because I could see a little better, but it also made me more visible to the band of wild dogs that roamed the river bottom.  The dogs were descendants of some family pets that ran off from the Collins house when old Mr. Collins got drunk one night and set his wife on fire.  In all the commotion, the Chihuahua, the Mastiff, and the Jack Russell Terrier got loose.  Over the course of about ten years, the progeny of that rag-tag group sort of turned into its own new breed of dog, tall beasts with big chests, wiry coats, pointed ears, and a tendency toward shrill and prolonged barking.  When the dogs would see me against the backdrop of the moon as I crossed a ridge by the river, they would come after me with a ravenous glaze in their eyes. It took every ounce of energy I had to beat them back with the twirler’s baton I used as a defensive weapon.  Knowing they would be after me, though, I always brought ham bones from the butcher to throw at them; that sometimes distracted them enough that I didn’t have to use the baton.

By the time I’d get home, usually around 12:30 a.m., I was dog-tired (forgive the pun).  I knew I had only half an hour to sleep before I had to start it all over again, so I wasted no time going to bed.

Fortunately, I only had to go to school six days a week.  On Sunday, I took full advantage of my freedom.  I slept in until about 4:00 a.m. and took my time doing the chores, finishing up by 6:30 a.m.  From 6:30 to 9:30 a.m., I practiced transcendental medication.  Tiny, of the laundry, had hooked me up with a source of some exceptionally good hash when I was about ten years old.  Since first experiencing the serenity I got from smoking just a bit of that hash I was, pardon the pun, hooked.  Sunday morning smokes became part of my weekly routine.  Those three hours on Sunday mornings were what got me through the rest of the week.  I don’t recall what I did for the remainder of the day because I was really “in the moment” during that time, focused only on what mattered then and there, so I didn’t use any energy creating and storing memories.  What I do remember is getting up, as usual, on Monday morning at 1:00 a.m.

 

 

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