Ashes

Early one recent morning as I was wandering the internet, looking for something that mattered, I stumbled across a poem written twenty or thirty years ago by someone mourning the death of a reclusive writer.  The poem’s theme struck a chord at the time but, as sometimes happens, I failed to make note of the details.  I don’t know the author nor the title of the poem.  It wasn’t the words that moved me, but the image they painted.  Well, I guess that says it all; it was the words, indeed.

It was an image I have had in my mind since a somber visit to the Texas coast a few years ago. One year to the day after the death of my sister, a group of my family members and I drove to Galveston, Texas to celebrate her life by fulfilling her wishes.  We waded into the Gulf of Mexico.  We opened the crematorium’s heavy-duty plastic bag that served as a temporary urn containing my sister’s ashes, and waded into the water, dispersing them in the water. The air temperature was a cool 55 degrees, which felt a bit cooler, especially with the breeze, but the water was much warmer.  Tears flowed freely, though we didn’t want them to.  But we had no say in the matter.

That image, that memory, prompted me to write a poem about the experience just a few days ago. I read it last night during Wednesday Poetry Night at Maxine’s in Hot Springs, along with a couple of others.

As I considered the other poetry I heard last night, it occurred to me that, sometimes, we try to convince ourselves we can be more than we have the capacity to achieve. My poetry is good enough for me, but it doesn’t approach the quality and depth of some of the people who read their work last night. I have to accept that I dabble in poetry; other people put their hearts and souls into it.  I thought I did, and maybe I have, but I just don’t think it carries the same weight as the stuff I heard last night.

So, as I consider the ashes of my sister, the ashes we poured into the Gulf of Mexico, I think it’s reasonable for me to come to grips with the fact that my poetry may be substantial to me, but it has the weight of ashes compared to the work emerging from people with true talent.

Life is what it is. I may be investing my passion in the wrong places.  Certainly, I know I am in some circumstances.  Time to reassess and redirect, perhaps.

 

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December 18: Thoughts for the Day

I remember how I felt as a young man when I realized a young woman in whom I had a romantic interest had no interest in me. It felt like a kick to the gut; it hurt somewhere deep inside in a place that probably has since disappeared. But the memory is clear and visceral. I will write about the experience when it no longer feels as raw.  I’ll give it another five or ten more  years.

 

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A Walking Trail

Yesterday, a long walk along the Cedar Creek Walking Trail turned a beautiful, clear, crisp day into an unforgettable joy.  Walking along the trail, it’s easy to imagine oneself in a primitive forest, miles from civilization.  The only noises are the rustling of leaves, the calls of dozens of kinds of birds, and the gurgling and splashing of creeks that run beside the trail.  It’s the sort of experience that is perfect when shared with someone special.

If I have my way, I’ll be back frequently to immerse myself in nature and allow myself to think, free of the noise of televisions and cell phones and the hubbub of daily life.

Aside from the sheer joy of being in the midst of so much natural beauty, there were some other unexpected delights. At the head of the trail, near one of the parking areas, is an information box for trail visitors. Inside, there were: paper towels; a watering bowl trail users can borrow to give their pets water; plastic bags to collect pet poop; and a journal of sorts for trail visitors to use to leave notes about their experiences.

I think the first entry in the journal was from 2007 or 2008. People left comments about birds and plants they saw, sounds they heard, places they found invigorating, and so on.  The first few years generated a lot of comments; not so much of late.  But there were two new comments left today.  And there will be more.  I plan to go back occasionally to collect previous comments, which I’ll one day include in an article about the trail that I may submit to the local newspaper. This trail deserves support, appreciation, and use.

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December 17: Thoughts for the Day

A tender embrace, a touch, can sometimes say far more than words.

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Missing in Action

So many things can get lost in the hum of daily life.  I realized this morning I have lost touch with another blogger I never actually knew; never communicated with him directly, to my recollection.  Instead, I read  his posts and enjoyed their raw anger and sarcasm, targeting objects toward which I shared his anger . I appreciated his sardonic wit.  I rarely, if ever, commented. I stopped visiting very often when I found nothing new on his blogs. Over time, I stopped visiting at all. And it slipped my mind until today when I was cleaning up one of my old blogs, one I’ve essentially abandoned.  I feel more than a little guilty at the disappearance of his posts. Many people need feedback for motivation; I simply watched from the wings and gave him no encouragement.

His blogger name is/was konagod.  I found his old blogs, but they have not been updated for a year or more.  I wonder what happened.  I’ll probably never know.  On the off chance someone who reads this knows anything about him, I’d like to know.

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December 16: Thoughts for the Day

The dangers are not in igniting the flames of emotion that fly in the face of conventional acceptability. The dangers lie in failing to fan the flames, allowing them to suffocate as they choke for oxygen, never giving birth to the beauty of what might have been a glorious raging fire.

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This Day Was Good, Too

Once again, my sister-in-law came to my rescue today.  She offered to be stand-in for my wife at the local writers’ club holiday lunch.  My wife had a minor dental emergency and the only opening with the dentist was 11:30 this morning. My wife didn’t need help getting to, or waiting for, the dentist, so my sister-in-law accompanied me to the lunch at the sushi restaurant.

The lunch was good, the conversations were interesting (even the one with my writer friend who loathes “Obamacare” and thinks it is anathema to freedom), and the opportunity to socialize, if only just a little, with other folks was valuable. The mainstream Chinese food was pretty good, though not truly “authentic,” nor was it particularly spicy, even the stuff that should have been.  But it was sufficiently tasty to get my vote.  The sushi was decent, though it did not compare to fresh sushi made by expert sushi chefs.  All in all, I cannot complain.  Especially for the price: $7.99 per person for the buffet, plus $2 tax.  Ten dollars per person is insanely cheap!  I hope the place can generate enough cash to stay in business.

After lunch, my SIL and I stopped at Chicken World, a place I’ve been suggesting as a good spot to stop and explore.  My wife has not expressed much interest.  My beautiful SIL, on the other hand, was game; so we stopped.  She bought a bag of hot peanuts; I look forward to her feeding them to me, as she laughs at my surprise that they are so horribly, uncomfortably spicy!  Well, we’ll see if that happens.

Then, we stopped for a moment at Walmart, looking for an antibiotic to smear on the spot on her upper back/shoulder where her cat had attacked her.  He did not do it intentionally (according to her), but he did leave a mark.  We did not find anything that she was willing to buy; the manufacturers think very highly of their products, unreasonably so.  That was OK, because when we got to our house, I smeared a bit of Neosporin on her wound, ensuring her health and happiness for years to come!

After a long wait at the post office so she could mail a package of fudge to people who matter to her, we headed to my house to see how my favorite wife was doing.  -She is fine, she said.  So SIL and I went for a long, enjoyable walk.  I demonstrated some of my many flaws by getting us temporarily lost a couple of times, but we finally made it home, after tackling some VERY steep hills.  And then, much to my chagrin, she went home.  I wish she’d stick around and chill here at our house.

My wife and I are enjoying our individual passtimes at the moment; I’m writing (badly, I’m afraid) and she’s watching banal TV.  I should not condemn her TV watching habits; some of mine are idiotic, on speed.  (But I have the good sense to hide my secret pleasures.)  🙂   She could say the same about my writing; I’ve been known to produce swill unworthy of human eyes.

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Look for Youth

You can tell by watching and listening to a person whether there’s youth “in there.”  Age has nothing whatsoever to do with it.  It’s entirely about attitude.  Look for silliness. Look for whimsy. Look for a child who doesn’t care if anyone is watching. Look for a smile as big and bright as the sun; that, my friends, is not evidence of youth, it’s proof.

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December 15: Thoughts for the Day

Some people grow. Others mature. Many age. More than a few ripen.  Too many decay. It’s not just age that does it; it’s acceptance and an attitude of inevitability.

While burning the candle at both ends may hasten the end, mightn’t it also make the end a little easier to take, knowing the flame was not extinguished by an impotent breeze?

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Dreaming without the Sleep Part

I just spent the better part of two hours in my little “shop,” listening to music and musing about life. Getting lost in music and musing is easy to do. It tends to take me into introspective moods, which can be good or bad, depending on the direction from the start.

Tonight, I lit a few cones of incense, hoping they would boost the chances that my moods would reflect the aromas of pine and cedar and jasmine and so forth. It worked, in part. But cones of incense do not guarantee joy, any more than they guarantee peace.

I listened to Jennifer Warnes, Leonard Cohen, Gordon Lightfoot, Loudon Wainwright, Tanita Tikaram, and others.  Obviously, I was not in the mood to dance.  But I didn’t want to be down, either.  So I listened to music that made me think, as well as react emotionally.

The conclusions I reached, after listening to the music and absorbing the aromas of three or four cones of incense, were mixed.  First and foremost, I felt a physical need to hug and be hugged; I was utterly alone in my shop, so that was not an option. But I wish I had more control over such things.

What I need tonight, I think, is the yurt in the state park we visited this weekend.  I need to be there alone, or with a spirit guide, with enough time and music to allow me to explore every inch of my moods.

There’s such complexity in human emotion. I wish I  understood it better than I do, but then I might not appreciate the complexities if they were explained to me in clinical terms, absent the mysteries of the mind.

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Dental Synchronicity

My wife and I must have some degree of synchronicity with respect to our dental health.

The last time I had a dental emergency (rare doesn’t adequately describe it; it was the first and only time), just a few months ago, it peaked on a Sunday morning.  That was before I’d even selected a dentist, though a friend had suggested one nearby and I made a call to his office.  Fortunately, I was not in so much pain that I needed to get immediate help, so I just left a message.  I got a call back early the next morning and was slotted in to see the dentist a short time later.  It was an abscess that required antibiotics and a root canal a few days later.

My wife awoke this morning with pain and swelling in her gums.  A call to my dentist’s emergency number resulted in a return call an hour or so later.  He prescribed an antibiotic.  He suggested she call his office and leave a message, explaining that the dentist had prescribed an antibiotic and asking for a return call to slot her into an emergency appointment time for tomorrow morning.

I hope it’s just an abscess that heals with just the antibiotics and does not require a root canal.  But if one is required, I know someone in Hot Springs who can do it so there’s only very slight pain involved.

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If Fishes Were Horses, Mermaids Would Fly

Two drunk and disorderly mermaids swished into a dockside bar one morning, just after the shrimp boats left the port in search of full nets and calm waters. The taller of the two, Shirona, called to the bartender, “Hey, barkeep, give us a couple of compari and clamato cocktails!”

The bartender, surprised to see two drunk mermaids so early in the morning, replied, “I’ve never heard of a compari and clamato cocktail. And it’s a bit early to keep drinking, isn’t it?”

Shirona’s companion, Molly, swished her tail to the right, smacking the bartender hard in the jaw. “Don’t give us any lip, you earth-walking ape,” she snarled, “just serve up the effing compari and clamato cocktails!”

“OK,” said the bartender, rubbing his swollen jaw, “I’ll make you an effing compari and clamato cocktail, but you’ll need to show me the money, first.  I’ve been scammed by too many mermaids to waste good booze on bad credit.”

Well, as anyone who’s spent time with mermaids knows, they do not carry currency with them and, in fact, can pay for their drinks only with gold doubloons snatched from sunken ships. At today’s US dollar/doubloon exchange rate, a single doubloon is equivalent to a two-month drinking binge.

Molly and Shirona each plunked down not one, but two doubloons. Shirona curled her full lips into a come-hither pucker and said, “Keep pouring until they lose their luster, Bucko,” pointing to the shiny gold coins on the counter.

And he did. Two months later, Molly and Shirona surfaced in a shrimper’s net, their tails in tatters and their smiles intact.

You thought there would be more to this story, didn’t you?  Well, there is, but I have to wait for Shirona and Molly to dry out before continuing on.

 

 

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Night Sky

P1000183The idea was that I’d get up far earlier than usual so I could see the Geminid meteor shower.  I got out of bed around 3:00 a.m. and went outside on the deck.  I looked skyward. I watched. I waited. No meteors.   But the moon was bright, wrapped in luminescent gauze behind a thin layer of high clouds.  It was a beautiful sight, peaking from behind the branches of the barren trees.

P1000184The swath of brilliant stars I’d seen when I went outside last night was no longer visible, but there were a few very bright ones visible when I looked straight up. Here’s one of them.  Or maybe it’s a planet. I can’t tell without my interplanetary interpretive guide at hand.

If I’d been paying more attention, I would have read that the best time to see it began about the time I went to bed, about five hours ago.  So, instead of awakening to an astronomical spectacle, I awoke to the realization that I’d missed it.  But I’m satisfied that the moon and the few stars in the night sky, visible even with the thin veil of high clouds, were worth a little nighttime solitude on the deck.

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December 14: Thoughts for the Day

Understanding is a far better teacher than experience.

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Days Like This

Today has been a gratifying one, another in a series of days that have different reasons for being good ones, yet all getting to the same place; being good.

The day started for me at about 4:00 a.m., when I got up and nosed around the kitchen for a while, slowly getting the dinner dishes from last night’s meal cleaned and out of the way.  I wrote only enough to produce my Thoughts for the Day bit, a silly one without even the suggestion of having any relevance to the real world.  Writing was not my thing this morning; I was on what I consider a well-deserved break from thinking about anything but mindless stuff, which today included breakfast.

I had planned on a special sort of breakfast this morning, something I thought my wife might not appreciate but might permit grudgingly. She was more generous than I had expected yesterday in response to my suggestion that I make congee with pork and crispy shallots. I’ve had congee on my mind for a while for some reason; today, I translated my desire into reality by making the dish for my wife and her sister, who we invited over for breakfast. My limited experience with congee began years ago during a trip to Beijing, where I had it at breakfast at the hotel where I was staying.  The stuff there was a bit different from what I made this morning; both, though, were delicious. More dreams of “breakfast around the world” swirl in my head.

After breakfast, I went to my sister-in-law’s house to talk to her handyman about the second set of downspout extensions for her house; it turned out my presence was not really necessary or useful, but I enjoyed it, nonetheless.  I’ve always enjoyed my sister-in-law’s company, but since she’s moved nearby, I’m enjoying it even more.  I like being around her; we have a lot in common but she’s far more interesting than I am.

Once the downspouts, etc. were in good order, I headed home, just in time for the cloudy weather to begin to clear.  Obviously, nature was conspiring to get me out of the house by offering such a fine day, so we decided to go for a drive and were able to convince my SIL to go along, which made us happy.

Among the stops along the way today was an impromptu stop at La Bodeguita, the restaurant/grocery we  love in downtown Hot Springs.  My SIL bought a bunch of stuff (including a couple of pieces of cake that provided mid-afternoon sustenance and happiness later in the day) and we bought star anise and a few tomatillos I can use in making salsas.  But, most importantly, we talked to the guy who appears to run the store; the result of the conversation is that we’ll pick up three dozen pork and jalapeño tamales next Saturday, just in time to assure the Christmas eve tradition will continue.

Then, we stopped at Las Americas, another Mexican restaurant/grocery, continuing our search for fresh habanero peppers (which failed at La Bodeguita and then at Las Americas).  Since were were there, we decided to have lunch; between the three of us, we had tacos al pastor, steak tacos, tacos de lengua, tacos de barbacoa, tacos de chorizo, and tacos de carnitas.  It was an exceptional meal!  And before we left, I bought another gallon of canned jalapeños, because my last purchased gallon is going fast.

From there, a brief stop at Kroger yielded little in the way of pleasing results, but a drive thereafter turned out to be one worth taking.  We spent time wandering around Lake Catherine State Park, where we conversed with and about Canada geese, spoke to a park ranger about available lodging (including a yurt), and generally enjoyed a peaceful place lakeside.  I’m ready to reserve the yurt or a cabin or a lodge or something so we can spend some really relaxing time right at the water’s edge.  Maybe sometime after the beginning of the year, before it gets crowded but after the chill is more tolerable than January mid-winter slug in the gut.

Thereafter, a trip east toward Little Rock to another Mexican grocery and its adjacent taco truck (these are located in the outskirts of Benton/Bryant) yielded more things of interest (and some more tasty tacos), but still no fresh habanero peppers.   My SIL needs habanero peppers so she can make a killer salsa…it’s all about my taste buds, sometimes.  We’ll keep looking; maybe I can take her to Whole Foods in Little Rock tomorrow for another try!  No, that’s not workable; she has a neighborhood party to attend.  Well, there’s next week, I suppose.

Across the street from the dive taco truck and grocery is an Enterprise Liquors location. Liquor stores always require at least a cursory review, so we stopped in to have a look. My SIL bought wine and beer and attempted to buy the Sweet Vermouth I needed to replenish the bottle that succumbed to applications in multiple Manhattans of late. I ended up buying it, along with a bit of wine and a six-pack of Diamond Bear Oatmeal Stout.  Once in the car, we agreed to do a switch, whereby I would give her an Oatmeal Stout in return for a bottle of the Diamond Bear Pale Ale she bought.  It’s all about give and take.

We dropped her off at her house just about the time the sun was setting.  Ideally, she’d be just up the block and could walk over for dinner and a glass of wine, but there’s a drive involved, which doesn’t do well with wine.  There is a guest bedroom on both ends of the drive, so a sleepover would do in a pinch.

At any rate, we came home.  And I got wrapped up in writing some things for my own consumption and then, bam!  My favorite wife is ready for dinner.  So, I made a grilled cheese sandwich for her and decided to do the same for myself.

 

 

 

 

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December 13: Thoughts for the Day

Believe it or not, I’ve never belonged to an outlaw motorcycle gang.  Consequently, I have no way of knowing whether the brotherly love between the members, as depicted on Sons of Anarchy, is the real deal. I suppose the only way to find out the real, unvarnished truth is to go undercover with a gang of criminal bikers.  What could possibly go wrong?

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Thinking on It

I cannot not read minds, though I sometimes wish I could. And there are times I wish I were an open book, as easy to read as an engrossing novel; it would be easier than to risk saying, openly, what’s on my mind. But that could be problematic, too, because of the inappropriateness of my thoughts in mixed company.  My thoughts might cause another person to recoil in horror…”how could he THINK such a thing?!”  For reasons I cannot explain, the sentence I just wrote brought to mind something a fellow blogger wrote several years ago, something to the effect that an idea he had was “vaguely disreputable, like consorting with the livestock.”  OK, that being said, I’ll continue my idea-fest.

These odd, early morning thoughts about human interactions and relationships give me an idea for a story about the ramifications of thought manipulation.  A man—for the moment I’ll call him Sombra—is able to plant thoughts in someone else’s mind. He then “listens in” on the person’s internal responses to the implanted thoughts.

Sombra is not power-mad; he uses his unique ability not to control others, but to test their responses to him.  For example, he finds a woman highly attractive; he might implant in her mind a thought about him kissing her.  If she responds to the thought in at least a mildly positive manner, he can comfortably make overtures without fear of outright rejection.  If, on the other hand, the woman finds the idea offensive, he dismisses the idea of pursuing any romantic involvement; his risk of embarrassment and rejection disappears.

The story, as described thus far, is too formulaic and two-dimensional. Something’s missing, I think.  So, I’ll make Sombra a married man attracted to another woman.  No, he’ll be a divorced man who is trying to enter the world of dating after twenty years.  No!  Sombra will be a woman! She will be attracted to a married man who, she believes, is attracted to her. Her ability with thought manipulation will allow her to explore the attraction, and whether it is mutual, without risk.

The absence of risk in human interactions has an appeal, but it also might tend to flatten the emotions that make human interactions so rewarding. Well, there is risk, of course, in that the man is married, but with the ability to control thoughts, that risk is effectively removed.

I’m thinking Sombra may need to have the ability to cancel her uncanny thought manipulation capability.  But it cannot be switched on and off at will. Once the decision is made to switch it off, there can be no way to restart it; the finality of the decision and the way in which Sombra will wrestle with making it should inform the story’s central theme. Will Sombra reveal her ability to the target of her desires?  Once she learns whether the attraction is mutual, will she flip the switch? At this point, I don’t know, because I cannot read her mind.  Maybe she’ll implant a thought that will give me a way forward.

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December 12: Thoughts for the Day

I’ve read that imagining a future in which dreams are realized is an exercise in futility; that living in the moment is all that matters. The pragmatist in me might grudgingly be willing to entertain that dreary perspective, but the dreamer who resides in my head rejects it outright.

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Pottery Ponderings

The pottery studio was in much better shape when I left it yesterday than it was when I arrived. About a dozen of us spent several hours scouring it from top to bottom, scraping layers of dried clay from every surface, wiping equipment and furniture with wet sponges, and mopping the floors, conducting a deep cleaning that should have been done midway through the semester.

We paused for the potluck lunch about 11:30 a.m.  I made a large batch of beef and pork chili, kept warm in my large slow-cooker; it was well-received.  The only other crock-pot type dish on the table was a superb chicken paprikash made by an elderly German woman who, she says, has been enrolled in pottery classes for more than twenty years.  She also made spaetzle to go with the chicken paprikash.  An elderly guy who walks with a cane brought a tray of breaded and baked chicken breast pieces. Most of the other food was stuff which required little on the part of the people who brought it; store-bought sandwich trays, popcorn drizzled with chocolate, Domino’s pizza, and such stuff.

There seemed to be a correlation between the amount of effort expended by the potluck participants and the amount of effort expended in the clean-up process.  People who invested time and energy in preparing food seemed to be the ones who also invested time and energy in the clean-up process.  I say that not only because I participated fully in both endeavors; I say it because I think it’s true, though the correlation was not perfect.  My table-mate for the semester bought a sandwich platter that she purchased at a grocery store, but she did work hard at the clean-up.  (She said she had intended to make sandwiches, but was dissuaded by her mother or aunt who had just cleaned the kitchen and insisted it not be disturbed with a sandwich-making frenzy.)

When the work was complete, I loaded all the clay I had not used during the semester and lugged it to my car.  Along with the clay, I loaded into a box my tools and the pottery pieces that will not be used in determining my grade.  The only things left for me to retrieve on Friday afternoon are two mugs, two slab pots, two pinch pots, two coils pots, and one raku sculpture that the instructor will assess to determine the grade she give me for the class. My work does not deserve a good grade, though I do not really care what grade I get, as the grade is meaningless to me. Some of the “real” students care about it, though.  But other “real” students don’t seem to care much, as they did not bother to finish the assigned tasks.

I’ve signed up for Pottery II next semester, so I’ll be spending Wednesday mornings (beginning in mid-January) throwing clay on the wheel, something I did not get to do this semester.  Having made a number of slab pots this semester, though, I have finally come to rather like doing slab work.  I won’t have as much time to make slab pots next semester, unless I spend more time in the studio or spend time working on my own studio at home. The problem with the latter, of course, is the danger of leather-hard pots shattering as I lug them in my car to the studio to be fired.  We shall see, shan’t we?

 

 

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Windows

lancet_lookAs I sat at the dining table one morning earlier this week, glancing through the large half-circle window above the double-door front entry, I noticed something odd.  The arch extending out over the entry-way into the house created the illusion of a window like that found in some churches, with a pointed top.

The photo here doesn’t do justice to what I saw with my eyes; the camera did not adjust for the light.  What I saw, where the blinding white light appears above the doors (in the shape of the windows about which I am writing), were trees across the street, bare of leaves, tall and regal.

I’ve often appreciated those church windows, thinking they would look good in a house.  But I’ve never known the term that describes such windows. After a bit of research, though, I now know: they are lancet windows, so-called because the shape with the sharp tip resembles a lance.   The image to the left is closer to what my mind told me I was seeing as I glanced out the window above my front doors.  This image is a graphic depicting a lancet window.

 

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December 11: Thoughts for the Day

I came home one day, not too long ago, and found sentence fragments all over the keyboard. I spent hours putting them back together.  It’s a good thing I know how to type.

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Finding Its Footing

Last night, I read a post I’d written not so long ago, on September 19, 2013.  The post was a recitation of items I’d written down on 3×5 notepads some time earlier; I wrote the post as a reminder to myself to dredge up the memories that caused me to jot the notes.

Sometimes, I like to go back to old notes and try to remember what possessed me to write them. Occasionally, my memory serves me well, calling up old thoughts well enough to recreate the experiences that prompted them.  Yesterday’s review of old notes corresponded well enough to history that I remembered many of the realities that caused them to spill from my brain to my fingers, leaving their fingerprints on the screen for me to read.

It wasn’t the notes, though, that triggered my memory of riding in a Triumph TR-7 in the late 1970s.  The car was yellow and black, as I recall. There was nothing in my September post that prompted the memory.  The post itself, a list from hand-written notes I’d jotted to myself, prompted my memory to go into overdrive, dredging up recollections worth bringing forward. The experiences surrounding that ride, and all the things associated with it, came flooding back.

For me, it’s a memory unfolding.  It’s an old wish, which once was young, scrambling to find its footing.

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December 10: Thoughts for the Day

In the past, but not so much lately, I have seen replicas of eggs—chicken eggs—made of agate or other stone.  Typically, I’ve seen them in gift shops or in individual homes; they are on display.  Just there to look at.  And I’ve wondered why.  Why do people make these stone or rock eggs?  Why do people put them on display.  Now I know.  Eggs just have a cool shape, pleasing to the eye.  That  must be it.  I’ve hit upon the answer to one of life’s perplexing questions.

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Life’s a Beach

One day before long, when the weather is a bit warmer and there’s no forecast of rain, I think I’ll head out very early one morning, just before sunrise, to the beach on Lake Balboa (the largest of the lakes here in Hot Springs Village) to experience sunrise on the lake.  I may be disappointed because the beach is situated in a way that may make it impossible to get a good view of the rising sun.  That notwithstanding, I think some quiet time on the beach around dawn will be a refreshing change of pace from my usual morning routine.

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December 9: Thoughts for the Day

We have a lot of choices to make, if only we take the opportunities. For example, I might choose to learn a new word each day or try a new recipe every month or meet a new person each week.  I could make it tougher on myself (and possibly more enriching) by choosing to create and articulate a strong argument in favor of a position with which I disagree vehemently.

These are choices we may make, or not make, freely.  The first step is to admit we have the choice.

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