July 28: Thoughts for the Day

A real estate agent, who had just placed a for-sale sign in front of the house across the street from ours, said to me:

“They had it for sale before, but it didn’t sell, so they took it off the market.  They lowered the price this time, but they didn’t lower it enough, if you know what I mean.  But the house is in great shape; if it needs any repairs they take care of it.  They’re good Christian people. That really makes a difference!”

If I had been in the mood for a confrontation, I would have asked her whether a good Christian real estate agent adequately represents her clients’ best interests by broadcasting that they priced the house too high. And I would have asked her to explain the relevance their religion has on the marketing of their house.

The agent would have made just as much sense if she had replaced “They’re good Christian people” with “They enjoy making egg salad sandwiches.”

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July 27: Thoughts for the Day

The best time to think is early in the morning, that time of day when there’s no pressure to hurry along to the next meaningless attention-grabber.  That dawdling time allows one’s mind to wander into the crevices where thought rarely goes. Ideas that otherwise never poke their heads above the surface of the brain tend to emerge when there’s no urgency to have other, more practical thoughts. Early in the day, before the sun burns the haze from the sky, that’s the time to let the mind run free. Early risers see this remarkable wonder that others seldom see.  Late risers don’t see us as we frolic with the unicorn in a field of rainbows.

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Old World Classics

We’re having friends over tonight for dinner, the only people here we know well…she used to work for me, years ago.  We’re having seared scallops over spinach and risotto, with steamed asparagus on the side.  Before dinner, we’ll have drinks. He likes a rye manhattan (2 oz. rye whisky, 1 oz. Martini & Rossi Rosso, 2 dashes Angostura bitters, stirred with ice and topped with a maraschino cherry).  She likes…I am not sure, but we’ll accommodate her.

If we had a grill, I’d grill a New York strip.  But we still don’t have a grill, so I won’t.  Our recent trip to Memphis did yield a nice big bag of sea scallops, so we’ll dip into that big bag.

We bought the rye whisky a couple of months ago, when we expected to have them over; that didn’t materialize then, so it’s still waiting to be opened…I’ve been very good.  Well, reasonably good. I doubt we have much gin left, something required for a gin martini or, for that matter, a gin & tonic or a gin gimlet.  Gin gimlets, by the way, are considered ‘sours’ and I believe they are among the finest old world drinks: 2 oz. good gin, 2 oz. Rose’s lime juice, stirred with ice and strained into a cocktail glass.  Speaking of sours, a whiskey sour is a fine old world drink: 2 oz. whiskey, 1 oz. simple syrup, 1 oz. freshly squeezed lemon juice, shaken or stirred and strained into a cocktail glass with a cherry or lemon wedge garnish.

Next week, some neighbors are having us over for a “getting to know the neighbors” party.  While we’ve met several people, for me, it has been only in passing…my favorite wife, on the other hand, plays cards with a group of neighbor women one night a week…so it will be nice to sit and chat with people, getting to know them a bit better.

The club scene here is not like the club scene in Dallas.  Here, it’s not night clubs…here, it’s clubs as in group so people with similar interests, e.g., cards, writing, painting, woodworking, computers, photography, etc. The club scene here seems to take a summer vacation; apparently, the members of clubs here (most of whom are retired, I would guess) take their own vacations.  So, the clubs I’ve joined (writers and Audubon) are having a summer-long siesta.

About the same time the club vacation comes to an end, I’ll start getting busy otherwise: a drawing class one afternoon, a pottery class another afternoon, and a “citizens police academy class” 2 hours one night a week for several weeks.

As I think about these activities, I get an odd feeling that I’m formally killing time.  I’m not just goofing off for the sake of goofing off, I’m putting myself into activities that seem designed to give me something to do because I have nothing productive to do with my time.  That’s an unsettling feeling.  I may have to rethink this whole “club” and “activity” endeavor.  It’s not that there’s anything wrong with being active in organizations…that’s partly what retirement is about…but I’m still not comfortable being formally unproductive. And it’s not just uncomfortable; it’s unwelcome in some odd way.

Maybe I’m a classic, old world sort of guy; I need to be productive to feel valuable. If that is the case, and I’m beginning to think it is, I must take action.  I must either make my writing my “productivity” outlet, meaning I must actually attempt to get it published, or I must do something else truly productive.

If nothing else, I’ve given myself something to think about.

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July 26: Thoughts for the Day

I am not one to mince words.  Onions, on the other hand…

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July 25: Thoughts for the Day

The monstrous obstruction in front of you was constructed of fear. Muster your courage.  Wade into it with determination.  It will melt into a pool of possibilities.

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Sand and Such

The sanding began, but the weather said, “No.”

I was no more than 30 minutes into sanding the deck with my newly purchased belt sander yesterday when the rain began.  It was light rain, but it was rain…not the time for sanding the deck.  So, after only half an hour, I stopped.  I was covered in a fine muddy-grey dust, a combination of old grey paint, taupe paint, sawdust, and metal shavings, the latter from the nail heads I’d inadvertently sanded to a sparkling shine.

Just two minutes in, I’d abandoned my efforts temporarily to find an old t-shirt to serve as a make-shift dusk mask.  I had no idea there would be so much dust, nor did I realize it would be so hard to breathe without filling my lungs with the stuff.  By the time the light rain began, I had sanded only ten or twelve square feet, maybe less.  I have hundreds and hundreds of square feet yet to sand.  But yesterday was not the day for it.

I had forgotten about our lunchtime commitment to listen to a health-related presentation after a free lunch, so it was just as well the rain started.  By the time I’d discarded my dust-logged clothes and showered and shaved, it was time to leave for the event.  We drove to Hot Springs, attended the event (both the meal and the presentation left me unimpressed), then did some errands: returned a woven basket that did not quite work as a decorator piece; managed to cram a 6-foot aluminum ladder I’d bought into the Camry with the rear seats folded down; and bought groceries at the only grocery store in the area we’ve found really satisfactory.

By the time we got home, the rain had long since left us and the deck was dry.  But there was an ominous look to the clouds, a surly cast that suggested storms were approaching. And approaching they were.  In no time, the sky became almost as dark as night and the winds began to howl. Rain, hard rain, started falling.  Thunder rumbled. Lightning flashed.  Thunder CRACKED! Rain blew side-ways.

The alarm on the weather radio screamed, loudly, alerting us to news about to be transmitted. Twice in less than thirty minutes the weather radio alarm sounded, warning us of severe thunderstorms, capable of producing 60-mile-per-hour wind gusts, heavy rain, and damaging hail.  While I saw no hail, I think 60 MPH might have been a little on the low side; the huge oaks and elms and hickories and pines behind the house were whipping furiously during the worst of it.  Flashes of lightning were like a strobe, keeping time to simultaneously deafening cracks of thunder.  And then it stopped.  Except for the rain.  The rain continued. It was heavy, but compared to what I had just seen, it was like a spring shower.

This morning, the humidity stands at 96 percent.  The temperature when I got up around 5:00 a.m. was about 68 degrees.  Not a morning for more sanding, I’m afraid.

But maybe it’s  a day for the Farmers’ Market…if the rain holds off and my favorite spouse is agreeable to the idea.

The forecast for tomorrow is clear and hot, as is Saturday’s forecast.  But Saturday we have guests coming for an early dinner, so I can’t spend the entire day sanding…the house (and I) should be clean for them.  And, considering that I’m the one who’ll be preparing the meal (seared sea scallops, spinach, and risotto, alongside steamed asparagus), I’ll have to devote more attention to the kitchen than the deck.  But Sunday promises heat and clear skies, too, so maybe the work I do tomorrow and Sunday will be sufficient to allow me to paint on Monday…but, no, there’s a 60 percent chance of rain for Monday.

I will finish the deck by October.  I will.

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July 24: Thoughts for the Day

Nature can serve terrifying reminders that humans are, individually and collectively, pitifully weak and impotent creatures.  The terrifying reminders which sparked my thoughts on the matter took the form of a fierce windstorm and coincidental thunderstorm, replete with an explosive light show and jarring claps of thunder.

We seem to have the capacity to choke the life out of our planet and are doing so with alarming alacrity.  However,  I have no doubt that nature will repair the damage.  Another species may then develop enough egotism to experience the delusion of dominion after we are gone.

 

 

 

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July 23:Thoughts for the Day

The quality of mercy is not strained.
It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven
Upon the place beneath. It is twice blessed:
It blesseth him that gives and him that takes.

Shakespeare can teach us a thing or two, if we’ll just let him.

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If Wishes Were Horses, the Deck Would be Clean

I wish there were a few 40- or 50-somethings close by, guys who retired early and are looking for something to occupy their time…something like helping a newcomer refurbish his deck.

I am having a hell of a time convincing myself that this endeavor is going to be fun.  It would be fun, perhaps, if I had some help.

In the highly unlikely event that someone reading this is anxiously awaiting the opportunity to work on refurbishing a deck, I have good news for you…I have an opportunity for you and, in the interest of charity, will not charge a dime!  Come one, come all!

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July 22: Thoughts for the Day

Give yourself enough rope, you’ll regret every tree you climbed.  Forgive yourself every tree and every noose you wanted to tie but didn’t.  If you won’t, nobody will. And maybe nobody should.

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This Week with Swinburn: Episode 1

Clear skies and cool temperatures introduce me to the week, a deceptive welcome if one believes meteorologists who say temperatures will top 90 degrees once or twice during the week.  I have little reason to doubt the meteorologists, though they’ve lied mercilessly to me before.  This time, I think their predictions have added weight, given that it’s late July in the South.

If my self-discipline and energy cooperate, this will be the week I begin readying the deck for an overhaul paint-job.  I’ll buy a belt sander and a passel of sanding belts and will go to work, preparing the surface for a couple of coats of deck-specific paint.  I make no promises, though; my self-discipline and energy have been known to abandon me before.

Writing is on the agenda again this week, too, though I’ve been fizzling in that regard since last week when my burst of creative energy was hit by a surface-to-mind missile.  If I have even the most remote hope of submitting anything for various writing contests underway, I’ll have to get in gear.  I can’t get too excited about contests, though, probably because I know with a significant amount of certainty that I have no chance of winning.  Whether I enter contests or not, though, I shall write.

A trip to Hot Springs for an informative medical presentation of interest to my favorite wife is on tap for mid-week.  And maybe, just maybe, I’ll rent a pickup and buy a ladder at Lowe’s while they’re on sale for $30 off…I miss my old beater pickup when such things occur.  While I’m renting (if I rent), I may pick up a BBQ grill from a big box store. I’ve not grilled at home since moving to the Natural State; withdrawal from grilling is ugly and upsetting to me and to those who witness that unpleasant spectacle.  I’ve grilled once since moving here, but that was the grill friend’s belonging to friends…it’s not the same as grilling right here on my deck.  I have a deep and abiding hunger for grilled rib-eye, rare, accompanied by zucchini, onions, and jalapeños, all grilled alongside the steak.

My grilling may have to wait, though, because I invited said friends over for dinner this week to partake in pan-seared sea scallops atop a bed of spinach and risotto.  That meal sounds simple but requires more than passing energy and effort, especially pertaining to getting the risotto just right.

A visit to the HSV Farmers’ Market is in the cards, as well.  It’s held twice a week now, Tuesdays and Thursdays, but we learned last week that the Tuesday market is weakly attended by vendors, so I suspect it may not last.  Thursday, though, is the day to get locally grown tomatoes, zucchini, okra, yellow squash, green beans, etc., etc., as well as locally made fried pies and spice packets, if one is of a mind for such things.

If I can muster the energy, I may join my favorite wife in a visit or two (or more) to the health club, which we’ve recently joined and which she’s visited far more frequently than I.

There’s more to this week with Swinburn, but I don’t yet know what “more” is.  I just know there’s more.  If the mood strikes, I’ll post about it as I go along.

 

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July 21: Thoughts for the Day

I sat in my “treehouse” room yesterday morning for half an hour or so, mesmerized by birds.

Summer tanager.
Eastern bluebird.
House finch.
Cardinal.
Blue jay.
Indigo bunting.
Hummingbird.

It’s rare that I see so many different birds in such a short span of time. I had planned to write, but writing can wait.I am at the mercy of the birds’ schedule, not the other way around.

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The Problem is…Oh, so very minor…

I was very upset with Suddenlink, our internet provider and pathway for Netflix, earlier today.  Well, most of yesterday and all days leading up to yesterday, as well.  And then I realized they weren’t the problem; it was the router…or the modem…or me.  When I pushed the reset button on the router to reestablish the connection to the television, the problems disappeared.

I began thinking about how upset I had been about something that, in the overall scheme of things, is not in the least bit important.  I allow myself to believe it’s important far too often; but then reality sets in and I discover I’ve been upset and angry about something amazingly minor.  If the internet delivered water and food and power, I’d have a legitimate beef when it goes out or doesn’t perform to my expectations.  But my complaint has been about not getting Netflix when I want it.

On one hand, I chastise the world around me to tone down the volume in complaining about problems that don’t begin to compare with real, life-threatening problems others face.  But then I go about doing exactly what I preach against.

When I reach maturity, maybe then I’ll be more mature about such things.

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Heartbeats

Most nights, if I lay on my right side with my head deep in the pillow, I can hear and feel my heartbeats.  I’m not sure whether it’s their volume or that the throbbing associated with them is so pronounced that is so disturbing.  Whatever it is, I must turn over on my back or on my left side to get some peace. Otherwise, my thoughts go in directions unfavorable to happiness…maybe I’m “hearing” high blood pressure…maybe the sound and feel of my heartbeats are trying to warn me about the condition of my heart…maybe the sensations are messages, calling my attention to my mortality.

Finally, I go to sleep.  But then, later on, I find myself on my right side again and I hear and feel the heartbeats.  I wonder what it is.  I wonder whether I should worry.  And then I tell myself worry is the province of fools; either act to address the matter or accept that there is nothing I can do and ignore it.

Lately, not long after I awake in the morning, I check my blood pressure and find it high, much higher than it was a couple of years ago when I was checking it religiously every day, along with weighing myself to measure the impact my daily walks was having on my weight.  I started looking into blood pressure and the different levels of hypertension. I compare my blood pressure numbers with charts describing stage 2 hypertension and hypertensive crisis and I don’t like what I see.  I wonder whether I should seek medical help for a hypertensive emergency.

But, I allow myself to relax and check again.  Repeated measurements give me numbers I do not like, but at least they have fallen…no longer urgent, just concerning.  And then, I remember a few years ago that I controlled my blood pressure through a regimen of diet and exercise.  And, so, I will slowly return to those good old days.  I will not push the exercise until my numbers have fallen considerably, but diet is an immediate remedy.

The idea of blood pressure medications is deeply unappealing; I’ve taken blood pressure medications in the past and experienced troubling and dangerous side effects that I’d like not to repeat.  So I will “self-medicate” by behaving as if my health mattered; eating well, getting exercise, and keeping tabs on my blood pressure.  But, if my efforts don’t yield reasonably significant results in a relatively short time, I will yield and visit a doctor.  I have grown less and less confident in doctors’ advice, though, believing many of them are too quick to rely on chemicals.  Yet I do not have any interest in asking for advice from “holistic healers,” either, because I tend to think their methods of assessing the safety and efficacy of treatment are based more on word of mouth than science.

And, so ends today’s health rant.

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July 20: Thoughts for the Day

There are moments in which one clearly understands the elasticity of time. Those are much like the rare occasions during which the color of gratitude becomes almost as vivid as the taste of bravery and the aroma of indecision.

A willingness to accept that the brain is capable of bringing order to chaotically irrational experiences is either a sign of madness or resignation. Or both.  Or, perhaps, neither.

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Saying Goodbye to Mike

Today, we will remove his corpse.  We will take it to a special collection site, where we will have one last look at the body that has shared our home for years and years.  I don’t know quite what to expect…will it be a dignified transfer, or will the collectors have grown jaded after having seen so many more like him, broken and disjointed and lifeless?

We would have removed Mike’s body before now, but we had to keep it in our garage, in case we had to produce evidence of his death to the insurance company.  They tried to tell us he wasn’t worth as much as we claimed; well, he was worth even more than we claimed…he was worth more to us.  We haven’t seen the insurance money yet, but we’ve been assured it is coming.  At this point, we just want the corpse gone…we want to go on with our lives without Mike.

So, in a while, we will drag his dead carcass to the car, throw it in the trunk, and haul it to the special site, the place reserved for unwanted bodies that don’t belong anyplace else.  The body of Mike the microwave, crushed by careless furniture movers, will finally leave us. Today, we get on with our lives without Mike’s body in the garage. We will say goodbye to Mike.  He served us well, but now it’s time for his body to be carved up so that his body parts can be put to other uses.

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July 19: Thoughts for the Day

I have anecdotal evidence of the importance of State automobile safety inspections.  In Texas, an annual safety inspection is required for all registered cars at a cost to the owner of, I think, $14.50. There is no such requirement in Arkansas.  Since moving to Arkansas, I have seen a remarkable number of vehicles with burned out headlights, fog lights, tail lights, and brake lights…far more than I ever saw in Texas.  My conclusion: the only people who notice the burned out lights are people in other cars…because there’s no requirement to have the vehicle checked periodically.  I wonder about the percentage of cars in Arkansas that also have inadequate tire tread, dangerously thin brake pads or disks, or other potentially unsafe conditions?  That’s what I’m thinking today.

 

 

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Gravlax con Cilantro y Tequila

I spent part of my morning preparing gravlax.  I covered it tightly with plastic wrap and placed another glass dish containing heavy cans on top. For each of the next two nights, I will baste the salmon with the juices that collect in the lower dish, then wrap and put the weights back on. On day 3, we will enjoy a fine meal.

John Swinburn
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Dad’s Birthday

Another year’s gone by since my Dad’s last birthday.  When I look in the mirror, I see traces of him.  There’s more resemblance than I thought there was when I was younger. He was a bigger man than I am, taller and stronger and better looking, but I see him in the mirror.  As the years go by, I think we’re a lot more alike than I once thought. Maybe I’m getting to be more like him every day.

Happy Birthday, Dad!  It’s hard to believe he’s been gone almost 30 years.

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July 18: Thoughts for the Day

There’s a vast difference between knowledge and wisdom. If I were to count every leaf on every tree, my knowledge of the total number of leaves would be of absolutely no value. Wisdom is to know when to stop counting, and why.

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Roadfood in Three Acts

Traffic between Little Rock and Memphis is surprisingly heavy. The enormous volume of 18-wheelers flowing down I-40 made impossible the achievement of my usual level of road-trip nirvana.

Were it not for the fact that we had planned a one-day round trip, I would have found an alternate route, avoiding the interstate.  As it happened, road-side signs alerting us to road construction delays ahead and advising alternate routes caused us to decide on a short detour on our way to Memphis yesterday.  A few miles outside Little Rock, we opted to head south on Highway 13 to avoid whatever delays there might be on I-40.  We passed signs for Nick’s BBQ and Catfish Restaurant, making note of the place for a possible visit sometime in the r.  Highway 13 took us to US 70, which parallels I-40 all the way to West Memphis; had we known, we might have stayed on US 70.  However, we opted to head north on Highway 11 shortly after passing through Hazen, AR.

We skirted around the south side of Memphis onto I-55, then to I-240, and finally on Highway 385 to Hacks Cross Road, where we found Costco.  We decided not to go in right away, because we wanted lunch and our planned purchases included frozen foods that would not take kindly to being left in a hot car while we dined.  Nearby, we found Huey’s Southwind, a burger place in a strip center.  The moment we entered, it reeked of chain restaurant, but we stayed, anyway.  The menu, laminated in heavy plastic, was full of color and whimsy and followed a “let’s have fun for the whole family” formula.  All of this notwithstanding, my burger (a “World Famous Huey Burger,” AKA a plain old hamburger) was decent and cooked the way I ordered, rare.  The addition of vast quantities of jalapeños helped, of course.  My favorite wife ordered a “Madison Avenue Burger,” served on a buttered sourdough bun with grilled mushrooms, Swiss cheese, and bacon.  She offered to let me taste it, but the blood on my hands from my rare burger might not have gone well with the buttery sourdough, so I declined.   She liked her burger.

Our Costco spending spree yielded a nice batch of things to fill our freezer, refrigerator, and cupboards, including:

  • two pounds of sea scallops
  • a two-pound salmon filet
  • several pounds of very lean ground chuck
  • a massive jar of capers
  • two large tins of roasted peanuts
  • a jar of roasted red peppers
  • a bag of frozen pot stickers

From Costco, we crossed the street to Kroger, where I bought bags of ice to surround the frozen foods in the ice chest, and headed back toward home.

As we neared Hot Springs Village, I suggested we stop at Kara’s Packing Company, a roadside spot we pass regularly as we wander down Highway 5 but, until yesterday, had never visited.  The signs advertising sausage attracted me to the place.  Inside, we met Winona (known as “Miss Kitty”) Kara, the owner who took over the shop from her father.  The store is one large room, with several large chest freezers on two sides, a wall of shelves filled with jars of canned goods on one side and, on the side opposite the entry door, the counter.  Behind the counter is the kitchen.

The variety of frozen sausages and tamales available in the store is astonishing.  If I had the space and the money, I would have bought samples of everything, but faced reality and left with just a couple of links of hot Italian sausage and some pickled okra and pickled baby green tomatoes.  But we ordered food to go; for me a Polish sausage on a bun and for my wife  “California” tamales with shredded pork (Miss Kitty said her Texas tamales have ground pork…I’ve never had ground pork tamales in Texas).  The Polish was outstanding.  The tamales might have been excellent, but they were dressed with what tasted like canned chile and the sort of cheese one might find on nachos purchased at the ballpark.  The disappointing tamales notwithstanding, I will go back…over and over again…until I have satisfied my craving for sausages of all varieties.

We put 412 miles on the car yesterday.  We did not “need” to go to Costco.  But I felt an “urge” to hit the road. Yesterday satisfied my urge, if only temporarily.  And I got roadfood…once at Huey’s, once at Costco, and once at Kara’s. A good time was had by all.

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July 17: Thoughts for the Day

Anger is a manifestation of—what? I wish I knew. I wish I knew what created anger where nothing existed before. I wish I knew how anger grew from a seed that everyone else shares, yet their seeds do not produce anger. That’s what I wish.

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July 16: Thoughts for the Day

Today feels like a Costco kind of day—a quick trip to Memphis to buy staples is in the offing. Staples like canned sardines, peanuts, and a large bag of frozen sea scallops. Who can live a full life without such things?

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July 15: Thoughts for the Day

Get up early. Drink coffee or tea. Sit for ten minutes and marvel at the clouds, or at the wondrously clear sky, or even the torrential rain falling outside the window. The day will be better for those moments.

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The Message

This is a spectacularly moving commercial for a Thai insurance company. I do not think any more of the insurance company for sponsoring the commercial, but the message is wonderful.

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