Lonely War

I am sorry;
you do not understand.

When you rejected the night sky,
you repudiated the stars.

When you ostracized the priest,
you attacked the parishioner.

When you battled against tears and won,
you denounced emotion as weakness.

You mistook an offer of kindness for a
sign of submission, a smile for a flag of surrender.

And, now, you wonder where they went,
your supporters who applauded when you entered the room.

They are still here, just down the hall, living
on life support, shivering and afraid
there’s nothing left of the man
you were before you
became scared
of losing your
lonely war,
in which
you are
the only
soldier.

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Seven

If words were crutches, would we need to break our legs to use them? If crutches were words, would we use them to beat people over the head?

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Moral Challenges

Morality is a curious concept. Arguments about its origins notwithstanding, conversations about morality present dilemmas that illustrate the complexities and fundamental dichotomies that exist within humanity.

Assuming we believe it is immoral to benefit from the suffering of another human being, who among us is moral?  If I buy a nice shirt that makes me feel attractive and debonair (I realize that’s stretching things), that’s not immoral, is it?  Well, perhaps not if I do not know that the cloth from which it was made was produced in a miserably hot, dangerous workplace.  Perhaps not if I do not know the shirt was sewn by people who are beaten if they do not meet daily production quotas.

If, after buying the shirt, I learn of those horrendous conditions, would continuing to wear the shirt be moral? Would my refusal to wear the shirt after learning of those conditions be moral, or would it simply be a feeble attempt to absolve me of blame for the treatment of people abused in the process of supplying it to me?  Once I learn of the abuse, to assert my morality in the context of buying and wearing the shirt, do I have any additional obligations to act to stop the abuse or to call attention to it?

Yes, I realize this seems too complex, too involved.  But I think it illustrates the fact that morality, however it is defined, must be defined as living within a continuum in which there are few sharp lines.  Somewhere between hugging a friend’s wife in greeting at the door and embracing her nude in a motel room, a sharp line is crossed, I suppose, but where is it? We seem to instinctively know when we are approaching those sharp lines; why are they so hard to define, to put into words?

I mentioned dichotomies earlier.  We, as a society, are taught that we should love one another. Yet love, too, lives along that moral continuum. Love of the friend’s wife is encouraged, up to a point; beyond that point, society (and most likely the friend) condemns it.  Well, which is it?  Do you want me to love people or not? How much love is too  much? (And I realize I may be over-simplifying things by equating love with lust (maybe), but I’m doing it on purpose and with a point.)

It’s questions like the ones I’ve posed here, I think, that give rise to reliance on religion for answers.  Religion often gives easy, uncomplicated, dogmatic answers that, frequently, defy logic.  My quest in thinking about and writing about them this morning is to look for the logic in the answers.  It’s part of the search for a secular moral code.

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Six

Opinions, unlike facts, are not subjects to standards of proof.  Consequently, they can be used as swords or as salve.  But, then, so can facts when misused to “prove” opinions.

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Morbid Curiosity?

I stumbled across something intriguing this morning.  It was of sufficient interest to warrant the further investigation which followed.  My fascination with language and its role in the human condition prompted my search and what, ultimately, might be considered morbid curiosity at its conclusion.

So, here’s what I came across.  First, a Facebook post (I think) led me to a link to a Time Magazine article. A link there led me to an article on Barking Up the Wrong Tree from 2011 that asked whether one’s use of words can give clues of suicidal tendencies and made an undated reference to an article published in Psychological Science Agenda that suggested the answer was “yes.”

From there, I went looking. I found what I believe to be the referenced article, entitled What Our Words Say About Us: Toward a Broader Language Psychology, published in the January/February 2002 issue of Psychological Science Agenda, written by James W. Pennebaker, a professor of psychology at the University of Texas at Austin.

The article describes an investigation into the use of first person singular (“I”) pronouns versus first person plural (“we”) pronouns by poets who committed suicide, versus a control groups of poets who did not (as of a specific date).  In addition, the investigation explored words suggesting social integration versus hopeless and examined those matters in the context of phase of career.  It became more intriguing to me as I read the piece.  I was curious to know the poets in the study.  And so I kept looking. I found a  scholarly article entitled Word Use in the Poetry of Suicidal and Nonsuicidal Poets, by Pennebaker and Shannon Wiltsey Stirman, published in Psychosomatic Medicine in 2001. And there I found the list of poets.

The nine poets who committed suicide were:

  • Randall Jarrell
  • John Berryman
  • Sylvia Plath
  • Anne Sexton
  • Adam L. Gordon
  • Sarah Teasdale
  • Hart Crane
  • Sergei Esenin
  • Vladamir Mayakovsky

I knew of some of them and the fact that they committed suicide.  But, reading the articles made me want to read their word again (or for the first time) to determine whether I could detect any signs or signals that might suggest hopelessness or despair.

I was, of course, moved by the personal tragedies of these poets’ suicides.  But I was also intrigued by the methods used in the study.  Of particular interest was reference to a tool called Linguistic Inquiry and Word Count.  A bit more internettery revealed this, from the LIWC website:

Linguistic Inquiry and Word Count (LIWC) is a text analysis software program designed by James W. Pennebaker, Roger J. Booth, and Martha E. Francis. LIWC calculates the degree to which people use different categories of words across a wide array of texts, including emails, speeches, poems, or transcribed daily speech. With a click of a button, you can determine the degree any text uses positive or negative emotions, self-references, causal words, and 70 other language dimensions.

Hey, I want that software! So I perused the website further.  For only $29.95 I can get my hands on the “lite” version of the software; for just $60 more, I can get the full-fledged version! Now, am I sufficiently intrigued to spend my own money on it?  I’m not sure just yet.  But it certainly sounds like something I’d spend time with!

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In the Beginning, There was the Word

The concept of human language is fascinating to me.  How is it that the sounds constituting Japanese and English and Arabic are so remarkably different, for example? And, quite apart from the differences in spoken words, how and why did written expressions of vocalized sounds diverge so radically that we have Japanese hiragana and Arabic abjad and the Cyrillic alphabet and the Roman alphabet…and on and on?

More intriguing still is the question of when human language emerged.  Did human language emerge as a single language and then diverge into the languages we recognize today?  Or did each language that today has such different sounds and written expressions arise independently?

To explore some of my questions, I looked for published material about the origins of language.  I found one especially intriguing, a simple piece published by the Linguistic Society of America.  It is a pamphlet entitled How did language begin Without claiming to have the answers to the questions it poses, it offers some rather simplistic, but probably solid, ideas, including:

We do know that something important happened in the human line between 100,000 and 50,000 years ago: This is when we start to find cultural artifacts such as art and ritual objects, evidence of what we would call civilization. What changed in the species at that point? Did they just get smarter (even if their brains didn’t suddenly get larger)? Did they develop language all of a sudden? Did they become smarter because of the intellectual advantages that language affords (such as the ability to maintain an oral history over generations)? If this is when they developed language, were they changing from no language to modern language, or perhaps from ‘protolanguage’ to modern language? And if the latter, when did ‘protolanguage’ emerge? Did our cousins the Neanderthals speak a protolanguage? At the moment, we don’t know.

Aha. That last statement sums it up: “At the moment, we don’t know.” That acknowledgement of ignorance is one element of the study of language that makes it so appealing.  We don’t know.  Can we know?  Do we now, or can we ever, have enough information to permit us to say with relative certainty how language emerged?  I don’t think we will.  Never.  But the quest for knowledge about questions without answers is thrilling, exciting, and utterly quixotic.  So why pursue answers to questions for which there may be none?  Because maybe people like me are wrong.  Maybe “never” is the wrong answer to the question of when we will find the answers.

I have the inquisitiveness of a child about such things, but I lack the discipline required to pursue them to their conclusion. I flit about, briefly, with deep and meaningful questions but then zip off haphazardly to something I find equally as intriguing.  It’s not that I lose interest, it’s that I do not seem to have the ability to remain focused. I suppose part of it is boredom with the lack of a constant influx of new information; gathering and processing knowledge requires work, which in my frame of mind as I gad about in the world of superfluous information, translates into boredom!

Now that I’ve successfully diverged from the focus of what I began to write about and, instead, made this post about my failure to adequately pursue my interests, I’ll return to the matters at hand.

As I skimmed online articles about language and its evolution, I kept running into names I know from other forays into topics which interest me but about which I know little: Noam Chomsky, Steven Pinker, Carol Chomsky, Bruce Hayes, and others. What I find most interesting is that I’ve stumbled onto some of these people while exploring other topics unrelated to language.  Steven Pinker, for example, came up while I was engaging in an email conversation/debate with some guys about violence and the extent to which comments about, or exhortations to, violence are or are not truly violence.

At any rate, while I was exploring this stuff, I came across information about the January 8-15, 2015 meeting of the Linguistic Society of America, which will be held in Portland, Oregon.  If I’d known about it much earlier, I might have actually made plans to crash the event, which (according to the LSA website) will have more than one hundred presentations on various aspects of linguistics in sixty sessions.  And when I found that a number of related organizations (e.g., American Dialect Society, the American Name Society, the Society for Pidgin and Creole Languages, and The Association for Linguistic Evidence, among others) are meeting concurrently, I kicked myself repeatedly for failing to keep abreast of such things so I could be an unwelcome participant.  While it appears the majority of presentations will address linguistic matters related to languages other than English, I suspect I could have enjoyed listening even to the programs that are far above my head (i.e., damn near every one of them).

I continue to lobby for radical advances in the acquisition of knowledge so that people like me, who are either too lazy or too old (or both) to acquire knowledge of interest can obtain it, nonetheless, by more palatable means than time and study.  My position is that work should be done to understand in great depth the changes in the brain that occur when someone learns specific information. For example, how is the brain of someone who speaks Japanese different from the brain of someone who does not?  With that knowledge in hand, scientists could develop chemical and/or electrical means of modifying the non-speaker’s brain so that those aspects of the brain that control language mirror those of the speaker. Then, voilà! The non-Japanese speaker becomes a Japanese speaker! If I could learn Japanese and quantum physics and mechanical engineering simply by going in for a day-long combination of injections and electro-shock therapy, I’d pay for the privilege.  It always comes back to this.  If humanity lasts long enough, I think just such a process will be not only possible, but practical and popular.  Yes, I most surely do.  And if you are in your right head as you read this, so do you!

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Five

Quiet is a state of mind. Without it, no thoughts can find their way to completion.

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1001 Posts and Then Some

Well, with this one, it’s 1002.  But just a moment ago, as I was looking at this blog’s administration pages, I saw that I had just published the 1000th and 1001st posts.  I’m posting this, the 1002nd post, in recognition of the milestone.  The first post on this site was on August 10, 2012. So there you go. I wonder how many posts I made on Musings from Myopia (now dead), Brittle Road, and It Matters Deeply (as well as the few others that petered out after just a few posts)?  I don’t know and don’t have sufficient desire to know to do the work required to find out.

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Talking to Myself

Some mornings, as I sit at my computer composing a post, I don’t write what’s on my mind at the moment.  Instead, I compose words that suit the mood I’d like to be in.  Or I attempt to use words to manufacture emotions I’d rather have than the ones I feel at the time. So, instead of exposing what’s on my mind at the moment, I create something else; it’s not artificial, it just isn’t necessarily real at the moment. It’s emotional time-shifting, for want of a better term.

When I realize what I’m doing, I feel intensely lonely. I feel as if there is no one with whom to have the conversations I want to have.  So, I have other conversations.

I get the job at hand done, usually, with a post that satisfies my self-imposed requirement that something, anything, get written.  But I know the post doesn’t satisfy my craving for conversations with people who might share my sensibilities at that moment.

I half-expected joining a group of writers here where I live would put me in the company of people whose motivations to write are like mine.  I hoped—wished is probably a more realistic term—to meet and talk to people whose emotions lapped at the banks of the same channels where mine flow. But I don’t feel that sense of camaraderie, at least not yet, with my fellow writers.  Maybe it’s because I don’t know them well enough.  Maybe, when we talk, they are guarding their emotions as carefully as I am guarding mine. I feel many things deeply, with intense passion or fear or loathing or anger.  Many people, I think, find my intensity uncomfortable, at best. And, so, I try to muffle it; generally, I am relatively successful.  Maybe that’s as it should be.

I’d rather be able to have honest conversations about things I think and feel and believe, conversations in which nothing is off-limits, no desire or craving or disgust or any other feeling or emotion is taboo. As I consider this matter, I think I may see where I am allowing myself to get stuck; I am in Hot Springs Village, a bastion of conservatism and age-related resistance to the unknown.  I think venturing into the community of artists and writers in Hot Springs proper may be what I need to do.

Now, will I do it, or will I continue to allow myself to box my emotions in, releasing them only through the relief valve of this blog?  Even this blog is insufficient, of course, because I dare not risk having all the conversations I want to have here, not even conversations with myself.  Why should I care about offending sensibilities?  I have all sorts of reasons.

Yesterday, at a workshop on character development, the presenter asserted that writers cannot create three-dimensional characters until they truly know themselves. She said the process of writing is hard and painful and revelatory; it requires “not stopping when it gets too emotional, but pushing through it.”  She said she thought she knew herself until one day, well into her forties, she learned, through writing, she had not known who she was all those years.  I understand exactly what she was saying. Now, I should act on her admonition.

Off to “push through it.”

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Four

When invited into a person’s heart, don’t make the mistake of checking your calendar for availability.

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Scrupulous Honesty in Pursuit of an Ever-Illusive Truth

An hour after I awoke this morning (thanks to a sinus-drip-induced fit of coughing), I found myself reading about Bertrand Russell.  As I read about his contributions to philosophy and political discourse, I found myself admiring the man for his willingness to put himself at risk of ridicule, and even imprisonment, for standing firm on his convictions.

Skimming some of his writings, a segment of one piece was especially meaningful to me this cold, dark, rainy, windy morning.  It was the ninth item in his Liberal Decalogue, which appeared at the end of an article entitled The Best Answer to Fascism: Liberalism; Its calm search for truth, viewed as dangerous in many places, remains the hope of humanity, in the New York Times Magazine on December 16, 1951:

Be scrupulously truthful, even if the truth is inconvenient, for it is more inconvenient when you try to conceal it.

Russell’s philosophies parallel my own, though probably I should say mine parallel his, inasmuch as he was the chicken and I am the egg.  Reading a bit about his life, I find myself torn between honoring his contributions to philosophy and being dumbfounded by a society that still hasn’t progressed to his (and my) point of view sixty-four years later.

I think what appeals to me most about Russell is the fact that he thought, deeply, and shared his thoughts without regard to how they would be received. In 1929, he wrote a book entitled Marriage and Morals, which argued, among other things, that modern (at the time) laws on marriage and sex were outdated, vestiges of thinking invalidated by modern means of contraception, because sex acts were no longer tied strictly to conception.  His public thinking on the subject led to the loss of his professorial appointment at the City College of New York ten years after the book was published.

The Nobel Prize in Literature 1950 was awarded to Russell “in recognition of his varied and significant writings in which he champions humanitarian ideals and freedom of thought.”

I read the text of the Nobel Prize awards ceremony speech, delivered by Anders Österling, Permanent Secretary of the Swedish Academy, which included the following:

The great work on Western philosophy which Bertrand Russell brought out in 1946, that is, at the age of seventy-four, contains numerous characteristic reflections giving us an idea of how he himself might like us to regard his long and arduous life. In one place, speaking of the pre-Socratic philosophers, he says,

“In studying a philosopher, the right attitude is neither reverence nor contempt, but first a kind of hypothetical sympathy, until it is possible to know what it feels like to believe in his theories, and only then a revival of the critical attitude, which should resemble, as far as possible, the state of mind of a person abandoning opinions which he has hitherto held.”

And in another place in the same work he writes,

“It is not good either to forget the questions that philosophy asks, or to persuade ourselves that we have found indubitable answers to them. To teach how to live without certainty, and yet without being paralyzed by hesitation, is perhaps the chief thing that philosophy, in our age, can still do for those who study it.”

It may seem arrogant for someone like me, someone who does not possess the intellectual horsepower of a man like Russell, to compare myself to him.  But I do, not because I am in the same league, but because I continue to do as he always urged people to do.  I continued to try to question all the answers, even my own, and I ask all the questions over and over again, trying each time to frame the answers from a different perspective.

I believe passionately that everyone, regardless of age or experience or philosophical bent, should routinely study other philosophies and should challenge one’s own philosophies.

Russell called it scrupulous truthfulness; I call it scrupulous honesty. The first person with whom one must be honest in such a pursuit is oneself; that may be the most difficult challenge of all.

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Was All Really Lost?

I watched (and watched is the operative word in this case) a movie, All is Lost, the other nightRobert Redford played the only character and had the only speaking part, requiring him to memorize very, very few, lines.  While I was impressed with Redford’s portrayal of a man coping with an exceptional challenge, I don’t know that I can say what the film was about.  Was it a survival film?  Was it a film intended to explore the results of bad decisions?  Was it a slow-speed action film?  I don’t know. That notwithstanding, the film held my attention for almost two hours, a rarity in my film-watching experience. I enjoyed the film.  I empathized with the character and sympathized with his plight. I worried for him.  When he made decisions, I worried whether they were the right ones. When he confronted obstacles, I wondered whether they were believable, but I believed them nonetheless.

Though I enjoyed the film, I can’t say with certainty that it achieved its objective with me, as much because I don’t know what that aim was as because it didn’t entirely “register” with me.  But I wondered whether I would have responded to the experience as he did.  I wondered whether I have the ingenuity that the character in the film had. But, mostly, I wonder whether the lines at the beginning of the film were connected to the end.

I don’t know. I just don’t know.  Redford and the writer/director, J.C. Chandor, deserve applause for producing a film that, if nothing else, causes intellectual and emotional confusion (at least in me).

There will be more film on my agenda for 2015; it’s time I got out a bit more. In the figurative sense; I prefer staying in with Netflix.

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Three

Is love is the absence of hate, just as cold is the absence of heat? There is more to love than filling a void. It is a void turned inside-out, revealing the entire universe in what once was vacancy.

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We Can Borrow Them

木漏れ日

The symbols above constitute a Japanese phrase for “sunlight filtering through tree leaves.” The English spelling of the phrase is komorebi.  I see no need to reinvent the wheel, or create a new word in a language that already has some 1,025,110 others.  It disappoints me that the manufacturers of the English language failed to come up with a word that describes sunlight filtering through tree leaves. Dappled sunlight may be the closest thing to a phrase that mirrors the Japanese but I prefer komorebi.  Will you join me in introducing it as a new member of the English language from this point forward?

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Two

I’m sure studies have explored the reasons music so profoundly affects mood in some (perhaps most) people.  But, to my knowledge, no universal agreement about the reasons exists.  I suspect music touches something primal beneath our civilized exteriors.  I’d like to know the definitive reason; my suspicions are valueless.

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The Technology of Caring and Social Change

Sometimes, I question the value of Facebook, thinking with some degree of certainty that it is simply a narcissism-fueled vehicle, hurling its cargo toward self-inflicted ego implosion. But then, every once in a while, I see evidence that the technology and foundation that fuels Facebook has the means to change the world for the better.  Let me explain.

During the past few months, and in particular the past week, I’ve seen messages on Facebook about the passing of the fathers of people I know, one a good friend, another an acquaintance.  The latter is a person with whom I’ve had limited personal interaction, but with whom I’ve developed a semblance of friendship, nonetheless.

What I witnessed in both recent instances was the positive power of Facebook, enabling people to learn of personal tragedies inflicted on people they know and to respond with compassion.  In these cases, I saw what were undeniably heart-felt comments intended to help sooth the children of these parents through tough emotional times.

I’m not suggesting Facebook is “the answer.”  What I’m suggesting is that the premise for the service, and the engine that powers Facebook, have enormous positive potential, if properly managed and utilized.  It may ultimately be an upstart competitor, or even nationalization of the service that is becoming almost a utility, that assumes the mantle of leadership and wears the crown of royalty.  It doesn’t matter; what matters is that a vehicle exists that can enable power strategic deployment of empathy, when and where it’s needed most. It’s only a piece of the puzzle, of course, but it could serve as the foundation. Personal, one-on-one, loving contact is the best weapon in the war on personal pain; but technology can be a strong supporting tool in the arsenal.

The ultimate power, and the reason I think it’s so transformational, is that Facebook (or whatever replaces it in the popular technological landscape) can marshal huge numbers of people who care and give them the ability to act on that caring, almost instantly.  The recipients of that geographically dispersed caring receive, it seems to me, the equivalent of an entire town coming our in supportive mourning. Surviving family and friends are the recipients of the outpouring of support.

That’s how I feel today.  But as history has proved repeatedly, my opinions (even the strongest and most fervently held ones) change. I’ll stick to these ideas until someone comes along and disabuses me of the errors of my logic.

Regardless of whether that happens, though, I found Facebook a valuable and uplifting tool in the cases of my two friends who lost their fathers.  The situations were unique, but I saw elements of the same upwelling of compassion in both cases.  Facebook.  I would never have thought it just a few years ago.

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One

Make peace with the past. Make love with the present. Make plans with the future.

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Positive Adjustments

Thanksgiving Day is the “official” day of gratitude.  That notwithstanding, and in accord with my tendency to go against the grain, I will proclaim my gratitude again, today, on this last day of the year.

This year has been one of remarkable change.  We were fortunate to be able to sell our house in Dallas and move to what has been, so far, a wooded wonderland.  Whoever coined the term “The Natural State” to describe Arkansas was brilliant; I’ve never seen such natural beauty, so close to home, literally. While we miss some of the cosmopolitan aspects of big-city living, we relish the peace and quiet of living in a community in which quiet is a benchmark of success.

Unrelated to our move to Arkansas, but gratitude-worthy anyway, thanks to the deeply flawed but very valuable Affordable Care Act, I was able to get health insurance.  That is something I could not have done without the provisions of the Act.  That’s because the law now prohibits insurance companies from denying coverage on the basis of medical histories that suggest the insurer might actually have to pay benefits one day.

I’m grateful that we were welcomed to the community, not only by our friends who lived here, but by neighbors who had no idea who they were welcoming when they knocked on the door and invited others to gather around to say hello.

And it just got better when my wife’s sister decided to move close to her sister, putting down roots just a couple of miles away at the end of October.  We have family close-by, something we didn’t have in Dallas.

My wife has settled into a routine of cards with neighbor ladies one night a week.  I have settled into a routine of attempting to learn pottery one morning a week and attempting to learn woodworking one morning a week.  And I am able to continue my efforts to write something worth sharing, something worth reading.  These things are cherries on top.

I’m glad I’m able to experience this place with people I love.  I’m glad I’m changing, albeit more slowly than I’d like, into a more relaxed, less stressed guy.  I continue to do battle with ideas and opinions; as more time passes, those battles increasingly take the form of written, rather than spoken, words.  I’m grateful for that.

Despite all the good during this year for which I am profoundly grateful, it wasn’t all wine and roses. I did not say goodbye to the bad habits that contributed to weight gain, loss of stamina, and too-frequent general crankiness.  Though this has been a spectacular year, I am ready to engage in some rehabilitation!  I’ve put it off too long.  In the new year, I’ll endeavor to become a little more svelte and a lot more pleasant to be around, in general. Ah, but those are preludes to New Year’s Resolutions; I may just make some this time around, but they’ll be a little more private, methinks.

I’ve made positive adjustments this year and have more of the same on the agenda for next.

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December 31: Thoughts for the Day

As the year began, with tradition, so it ends; with reflection and anticipation.

A lot of good things happened in 2014, and a lot of bad things happened.  I’ll not judge the year on the basis of either, because that would do no good.  Instead, I’ll express appreciation for the year because, without it, where would we be?  And because it is the most recent year available to serve as a model, I’ll use it as the starting point to help make 2015 and subsequent years as good as they can be.

This is my last post to be called “Thoughts of the Day.” I may continue to use the category title, but next year, I’ll shift gears a bit.

To you, dear reader, I hope your days in 2014 numbered more good ones than bad ones and I wish for you a wonderful 2015.

 

 

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Another Lover, Same Story

So many definitions of love, such a vast array of wildly disparate  viewpoints of an emotion; yet people seem to have stunningly similar, deeply intimate perspectives on the emotion that feeds on intimacy.

I have fallen in love again, for perhaps the thousandth time, but I won’t share all the details here, just a few.  I’ll leave you guessing and wondering how I could have allowed it to happen, how I could pin so many hopes on what might be a brief flicker, a muffled explosion.

This time, the object of my love is The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows, a web series that defines a new word (a neologism) for a “strangely powerful emotion.”  Some of the terms describe what I know to be real emotions, real fears and disappointments.  I love that someone else has conceived of the need for some of these words.

And then, yet another seduction, again by words [albeit foreign language words] that cannot be translated into a single word, or even a simple phrase, in English.  This time, the object of my desire is Lost in Translation: An Illustrated Catalog of Beautiful Untranslatable Words from Around the World.

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December 30: Thoughts for the Day

Get past the container and straight to the milk. Listen to what your thoughts are telling you.

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Who Is That Guy?

I wrote, a month or two ago, about an exercise in which one attempts to describe himself from the perspective of someone he has just met.  I will do that here, basing my description on a specific person to whom I’d been introduced an hour or so before, during a social gathering.  Below is how I expect that person would describe me, based on our interactions.

He is a rather short, stocky guy with an unremarkable head of hair and a well-developed double chin.  He attempts to be affable, but you can tell he’s a bit uncomfortable with new people.  He doesn’t have a genuine “happy to meet you” smile; it’s more of a stress smile, the sort of response you’d expect during a first meeting with a new doctor.

He’s not unfriendly, he’s just a little withdrawn, except for his strained attempt to be outgoing.  I’m a little embarrassed for his efforts; almost anyone should be able to see through them. He’s a little like a lonely puppy, starved for attention but afraid of rejection.

It’s hard to tell, at this stage, whether he’s unusually bright or extraordinarily dull; he could be either.  Or neither. I’d probably not invite him to a dinner party, expecting him to strike up conversations.

I’m not suggesting the person’s description of me is spot on, only that I think that’s the way he’d describe me shortly after the first meeting.

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December 29: Thoughts for the Day

Exploring emotions is just as satisfying as exploring intellect, perhaps more so.  Intellect can run rough-shod over emotions; but naked emotions are raw and unharnessed reality. It’s too bad we have to hide so many of our emotions, the ones frowned upon by society in general or specific people in particular.  Where’s the freedom in that?

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Behaving Decently: A Reminder

Words that bear consideration:

“I am a humanist, which means, in part, that I have tried to behave decently without expectations of rewards or punishments after I am dead.”

~Kurt Vonnegut

That point having been considered, something that should have sunk in for me earlier than now is this: religious, as well as nonreligious, teachings about what is moral and what is not are not unlike Vonnegut’s words. They are reminders to behave decently. Some of us, and I say “us” because I include myself, need to be reminded of what’s good, what’s right, what’s important.

Absent such reminders, we might allow ourselves to adjust and adapt to the hard, unkind, amorality of the world by behaving badly. It may be easier than going to the trouble of behaving decently.  Being reminded that being kind, behaving decently, and respecting others is good, regardless of from whence the reminder springs.

On the issue of education about morality, here’s another thought on the matter:

“To educate a person in the mind but not in morals is to educate a menace to society.”

~Theodore Roosevelt

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December 28: Thoughts for the Day

If honesty were not so damn dangerous, we would be more forthright in our dealings with everyone from the power company to the people we love, and even the people we loathe.

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