Author Archives: John Swinburn

About John Swinburn

"Love not what you are but what you may become."― Miguel de Cervantes

Incoherent in English

It’s twenty minutes after five o’clock and I’m tired of being awake. I woke up just before four and have been writing and thinking uncomfortably ever since.  I have posted my two requisite blog posts but still don’t feel like I’ve accomplished a bloody … Continue reading

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Disappeared

Every once in a while I have this fantasy in which I simply disappear.  Not literally, but close to it.  One day I’m here, the next day there’s no trace of me; I’m just gone.  I don’t know just why … Continue reading

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Fifty-Seven

Fifty-Seven. That’s what I label this post.  That must mean this is the fifty-seventh day of the year.  Time ticks along, shedding a second or a minute or an hour or a day at a time, moving inexorably toward the moment … Continue reading

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A Little Bit of Winter

Cold weather is not my thing, but I do love the look of the fourth season!

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Art & Fear

I met a woman last week who suggested I need to face, and overcome, my fear.  She knows virtually nothing about me, except that I write and that I do not call myself a writer. When she was told by … Continue reading

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Fifty-Six

Things could be worse. Celebrate the fact that humanity hasn’t incinerated itself.  That’s a celebration worth having.  And any such celebrations call for meat pies and sausages spiced with jalapeños, wrapped in dough.  Hell, yes, life is worth living! Drink … Continue reading

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Drawing the Line on Twisted Thinking

Certain topics are so imbued with social radioactivity that we have learned sharing our curiosity or our thoughts about them in most social environments and in most person-to-person interactions is unsafe, emotionally or psychologically. What are these topics? The sex act. Homosexuality. … Continue reading

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The Breakfast Project

I have gathered basic information about common breakfasts in sixty-two countries.  I am now beginning the process of checking whether the information I’ve gathered is legitimate (most of it came from the internet, though some from my own experience).  I … Continue reading

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I Need Hands on My Body

WANTED: Full-body massage, followed by regular hour-long back-rub leading to focused manipulation of hands, feet, and back of head and upper neck.  Willing to pay up to one hundred million dollars, or trade for the eternal rights to my soul, … Continue reading

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Fifty-Five

Messages are not messages when sent, they are intentions.  They are messages when received.

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Inside Out

Garmish Sly awoke with an awful, horrific headache. He recognized it as either the aftermath of, or a prelude to, an episode. It wasn’t unusual, but it was unwelcome. He spoke, out loud. “I think they scalded my brain.  The thoughts, … Continue reading

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Trainstation Dreams

I jotted notes about the following dream one night several weeks ago; maybe it was months.  At any rate, here’s another of my dreams, recorded here for posterity, or the mental health training program. I wrote this post about the … Continue reading

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Fifty-Four

You cannot cause a person to love you, or even to like you. You can attempt to influence another’s emotions by the way you behave, but you can’t cause an emotion to arise in another person out of the sheer force of your will. The best you can do … Continue reading

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Memories of the Border

Memories of my childhood are rare.  For reasons unknown to me, much of the stuff of my childhood seems to have simply vanished from my brain.  I do have memories, but it’s quite possible the majority of those few are not … Continue reading

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Fifty-Three

When I’m the only one I can find who’s interested in a topic, I may decide to discuss it with myself. And when I’ve of two minds on the matter, I’ll argue with myself.  It’s annoying when I lose the argument.

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Tamale Fest

I spent almost the entire day yesterday—well, from 11:00 a.m. until 5:30 p.m—working in the kitchen, preparing for today’s long-awaited tamale fest.  A couple of friends who have been after me to have a tamale party for more than twenty years (long … Continue reading

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Fifty-Two

Some people tend to choke when swallowing their pride, so they avoid doing it, at all costs.

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Found It

In spite of my efforts yesterday to find my phone, in my car where I thought I must have dropped it, I couldn’t find it.  But, this morning, I decided to have one last look.  Armed with a flashlight, I … Continue reading

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Recycling

There’s a vast middle ground between brand-new and broken, between useful and useless. If we allow ourselves to reject the notion that new equals better, we open up a world of possibilities in every facet of our lives.  There is wonderful … Continue reading

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Lost It

Somehow, I managed to lose my new cell phone.  Like, it vanished into thin air. I was standing in the parking lot of the Hot Springs Village Chamber of Commerce, talking to someone about the fact that I sometimes fail … Continue reading

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Fifty-One

As I sit at the table, listening to the sound of the fan pumping warm air from the floor ducts into this voluminous room, I wonder whether it makes sense to have such tall ceilings in the winter. And I … Continue reading

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Love and Compassion

I subscribe to Zen Habits,a blog dealing with “living in the moment” and being content with, and productive in, one’s life. Recently, a post reminded me that people tend to define themselves by what they do, what other people think of … Continue reading

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Fifty

Return the affection that is laid on you.  If it is honest, it will grow and consume any doubt; if it is not, it will smother the pain and leave sweetness in its wake.

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My Response to Right-Wing Fanatical Religious Hysteria

Maybe I should have held my tongue (or put my fingers back in their cases, as it were), but it struck a nerve with me.  So I responded to the email, which was the following message that was forwarded to me by … Continue reading

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Forty-Nine

Words you don’t want to hear from your wished-for lover after informing her you narrowly missed being killed by a  jack-knifing big rig on a slick, icy highway: “Oh yeah? Do you think the roads will be clear enough tomorrow … Continue reading

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