Author Archives: John Swinburn

About John Swinburn

"Love not what you are but what you may become."― Miguel de Cervantes

Two Hundred Thirty-Six

I read that “meditation is a conscious effort to change the way the mind works.” At this very moment, I am sure that is what is required.

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Make Me One with Everything

Before today, the last time I attended a church service was on June 1, 2014. We visited the Unitarian Universalist Village Church (UUVC) on that day to hear “Being Good Without God: Coming Out as a Humanist.” I enjoyed the program. … Continue reading

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Bald-Headed Assessment

I awoke quite early this morning, long before the sun would begin to nudge the darkness aside, replacing it with smudges of grey fog-laden daylight. I made a cup of coffee and held it in my hands. Too warm, I thought to … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Thirty-Five

If you cry when others don’t, over things that don’t matter to the world around you, look in the mirror and thank the sun and the stars you are not of the world around you.

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Mermaidery

Almost a year ago, I sketched out the beginnings of a story involving a young mermaid who, ignoring her mother’s warning, got involved with a two-legged land creature. The story was vague and without distinctive features, aside from the mermaid … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Thirty-Four

I stumbled across a Facebook post recently by a woman from Tibet, a woman who grew up in the Buddhist tradition. In the post, she recalled that her grandmother prayed for all sentient beings. I wish I could ask her, or her … Continue reading

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Longing

It happens more frequently now than it did ten years ago. Ten years ago, it would occur every three or four months and last for, maybe, two or three days. Then, I could return to “normal” for another few months. I don’t know whether … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Thirty-Three

Dignity is more about helping others cope with tragedy than it is about coping with tragedy oneself. I learned that from President Jimmy Carter.

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¿Son Otras Inquisiciones?

A year or so ago, I revived an old idea of mine, one I had conceived years ago. I had not acted upon the idea because the cost to do so was beyond my financial means at the time. But the … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Thirty-Two

Above me, the skies turned grey and turbulent, roiling clouds drinking in moisture from the surrounding air, behaving like an inveterate alcoholic, sucking in atmospheric humidity as if it were liquor. Suddenly, the visible turbulence of the clouds turned to a solid mass … Continue reading

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Kayakery

My sister-in-law bought a kayak the other day. She has a new friend—who lives on a lake nearby—who kayaks. The friend invited my sister-in-law to go kayaking with her recently. Next thing I know, my sister-in-law is crazy for kayaking. … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Thirty-One

For reasons I do not understand, but probably could if I engaged in sufficient self-reflection, I often think of some of the lyrics to a 1968 Jefferson Airplane tune written by Grace Slick: Lather was thirty years old today, And Lather came … Continue reading

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Follow Your Dream, Dingo

People who are quick to condemn, quick to attack, quick to blame, quick to demand redress for grievances, real or imagined, should be quick to apologize when circumstances turn out to be different from what their paranoia initially suggested. But “should” is … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Thirty

The man’s words came from my brain. “The most important things are the hardest to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them—words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to … Continue reading

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Abstractions

All of us are abstractions, cast in an impermeable mixture of sand and cement of our own making. We’re parodies of ourselves, fabricated partly out of pieces of the way we look in the mirror and partly from scraps of others’ perceptions of who we … Continue reading

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Recollections of Writing

I spent the better part of the day yesterday reading posts from an old blog I had been able to restore from a backup file. Either I’d forgotten I’d created the backup or had tried to restore it unsuccessfully in the … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Twenty-Nine

At some point, your rage will simply boomerang and you will have wasted all your energy on a brutal attack on yourself.

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Eye-Opening Memory

Today, I was able to restore an old blog I once deleted. It’s a long story, not worth re-telling, but what is worth telling is that I found a post I treasured from the day I wrote it. I hated … Continue reading

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The Road

I drive that same damn road, that dusty stretch of decayed asphalt my father drove when he was the age I am now. But he had a twelve-year-old son back then. The road is in a different place, a different … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Twenty-Eight

I recently skimmed an article that described a room (or was it simply a device?) in which all external noise was filtered out. The only sounds a person inside could hear were the sounds of his own body; heart beating, … Continue reading

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Feel Forward

“Pay it forward” has become a popular feel-good endeavor of late. Not a day goes by that I don’t read or hear a news story or view a Facebook post about someone buying coffee for the next person in line … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Twenty-Seven

Damn near everything I write is allegorical. I wonder whether that’s an indication I don’t have the fortitude to be forthright?

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Scruples

Some lost their scruples in the war, some misplaced them in a bar. Others left them while smoking crack and now they’ll never get them back. She once had an ounce of them, but expelled it when she coughed up phlegm. He never had them and … Continue reading

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Who’s the Bad Guy?

My dream last night was frustrating and upsetting and hopeless. Asked to make a presentation on association marketing to an organization in Chicago, I had prepared an hour-long presentation. Thinking I had plenty of time before the presentation, I took … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Twenty-Six

Dreams unmask fears and hopes and desires. They unleash the heartless monster and the loving humanitarian buried under countless layers of time and tears.

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