Author Archives: John Swinburn

About John Swinburn

"Love not what you are but what you may become."― Miguel de Cervantes

Two Hundred Sixty-Three

The degree of success I enjoyed, relative to other people my age, once mattered to me. I used an external measure, a standard against which I might compare favorably or unfavorably; the variance, positive or negative, was my yardstick. In hindsight, … Continue reading

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An Artistic Community

Last night, my favorite wife and her favorite sister and I drove into Hot Springs to hear a presentation about the structure, style, and components of jazz. The event was held at the Fine Arts Center of Hot Springs (626 Central … Continue reading

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Old Newspaper Clippings

Old newspaper clippings, even those clipped by someone else for reasons unrelated to one’s own experiences, can trigger memories. Well, memories may be the wrong word. Longings may better describe it, though even that’s not quite right. It’s more like … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Sixty-Two

I’ve filled the hummingbird feeders four times in the last two days. Each time, I dissolve a cup of sugar in a quart of water and fill the feeders. In no time, those thirsty birds suck up the nectar, the frenzy … Continue reading

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Fulcrum

Fulcrum gazed at the bathroom mirror, marked with water spots and bits of toothpaste flung from his mouth during yesterday’s energetic attempts to brush away the taste of the previous night’s experiment with bourbon and sloe gin.  He stood staring at his reflection, illuminated by an ancient fluorescent … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Sixty-One

It’s so damn easy for me to get distracted and, in so doing, to absent-mindedly behave in a way that causes other people to feel I am ignoring them or their feelings. Or, perhaps, the perception is simply that I … Continue reading

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Illegal Smile

Bottom line, I probably would not turn down an offer of marijuana in the proper circumstances. Yeah, I know. It’s illegal. That notwithstanding, I wonder where I might get my hands on some? It’s been a long, long time since … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Sixty

Fight if you feel you must, but understand that battles have consequences, some of which are unintended. Before you enter the fray, weigh the potential for success and failure and consider what those outcomes really mean.

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Two Hundred Fifty-Nine

Lethargy and comfort are to blame, I think. They’re the reasons more of us don’t immerse ourselves in other cultures, if only for a little while, to experience the world from a different angle, a perspective impossible to embrace without … Continue reading

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Misfiring September Synapses

If I were a psychologist, trained in the causes and effects of socio-neural stimulus-response, I might know why so many things happen. I might understand why people’s eyes brim with tears as they remember both horror and beauty. I could possess an … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Fifty-Eight

I sometimes wonder, when I wake up, what other people are wondering when they wake up. And then I wonder whether they wonder what others are wondering. If they do, we should get together for some sort of reunion.

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Taking Notice

Some days as I amble through my life, I notice people quietly and anonymously doing nice things that deserve appreciation. Things like flipping a mailbox closed to prevent rain from wetting the contents; picking up a home-delivery newspaper from a driveway and flinging … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Fifty-Seven

The likelihood that I will be called out as a fashion plate is less than slim. I’m comfortable with that, just as I’m comfortable in my unfashionable clothes. I have friends who would shudder if they were forced to wear … Continue reading

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Poetry

Next Wednesday night, I’ll again go on stage as “feature poet” at Hot Springs’ Wednesday Night Poetry. The first time I did my gig, it was held at Maxine’s, a bar and music venue. Since then, the organizers of Wednesday Night … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Fifty-Six

In recent years, I have come to realize that my lifelong disdain for religion has never been particularly helpful to anyone, including myself. While I do not believe in a deity of any sort, nor do I believe in supernatural … Continue reading

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Musings on Meat and Much More

I read a post on Quora a few weeks ago that got me questioning, again, about how many of us humans came to such ambivalence about food.  Why, for example, are so many of us happy carnivores when the food on the table … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Fifty-Five

I am living proof that a person can learn simply by remembering, and searching for insights in those memories. Concepts, which in our arrogance we thought we knew to be truths, become harsh lessons in humility and appreciation in retrospect. Old facts become … Continue reading

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Unexpected Interests

My recent research into first-year anatomy class in medical school—followed by my unnecessary readings about human anatomy, medical school program formats, and the like—has persuaded me I could have successfully pursued a career in medicine. I would have had to change … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Fifty-Four

Several months ago, I wrote on my blog about a Japanese word (komorebi) that means sunlight filtering through tree leaves. I coined a wholly unsuitable neologism that would get at the theme, but would not be restricted to sunlight filtering through … Continue reading

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Just Past the Point

A writer, speaking at a conference I attended, suggested interviewing key characters when it’s tough to decide on the direction one’s writing should take. So, I asked a character for an interview. He turned me down. I asked again. Same result. Later, … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Fifty-Three

Some days, I can amuse myself for hours simply by imagining conversations with high-profile political figures who I’ve kidnapped and locked in my basement.    

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Two Hundred Fifty-Two

Perseverance is key to attainment, whatever the hard-sought aim. Whether carving a face in the side of a granite mountain, writing an emotionally draining novel, or crafting a new outlook on life, success is the reward for persistence. But that’s … Continue reading

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A Little Ugliness

Just a couple of weeks ago, during my annual physical, I told my doctor my Crohn’s disease has been in remission for a number of years, with only a very rare flare-up. Yesterday, that very rare flare-up occurred; at least … Continue reading

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Garcia

The Greyhound bus slowed and the driver coasted toward the intersection.  Finally the diesel-belching beast came to a halt. The driver, a guy I’d swear must have been pushing eighty, pressed a button and the door swung open with a loud … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Fifty-One

One recent day, at the local college, I opened the door to the air-conditioned pottery studio after raku-firing several pieces outside in a 1900-degree kiln. Naturally, I was dripping in sweat; my hair wet and my t-shirt drenched. One of the women in … Continue reading

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