Loathing in the Natural State

I am having serious reservations about staying here. I do not know whether central Arkansas is really the place for me.

These doubts have little to do with the ugliness of the political environment and everything to do with the entomological climate. Yes, it’s chigger season and, for the second year running, I am the victim of horrible chigger bites.

I have no idea when or where the vicious little beasts are getting on me. I know only that they are biting me and causing itching the likes of which I’d never felt before moving to Arkansas. Last night, while sitting in front of the television, I felt an itch in my nether regions. It has grown progressively worse, despite my immediate application of a sticky ointment, sold locally for approximately one million dollars per ounce, said to be THE solution to chigger bites. Since then, I have felt, and now have seen, bites on the top of my right foot and behind my left knee.

Chiggers are, as far as I can tell, invisible. They come from nowhere, latching on to the body and travelling up one’s flesh until they find a spot that seems, to them, perfect. And then they feast, causing painful itching and hideous welts in the process. I have visible scars, just above the belt line, from last year’s attacks. Once these creatures get their claws or jaws or whatever they use into you, their presence is perpetual. They leave scars.

The thing is, I really have no idea where they get at me. I try to avoid walking where there’s grass that might brush up against me (which is where, I’m told, they’re most likely to be lurking in wait).  I suppose I could lather insect spray on my lower extremities whenever I venture out of the house, but the odor and the oilyness argue against doing so when I plan to be around other people.

Damn!  I just don’t know precisely what to do in response to the attack.

Here I sit, at four-thirty in the morning, hating the fact that I’ve been targeted by chiggers in three places in the last ten hours. The itching is almost unbearable, even after applying the costly anti-chigger-itch ointment. I guess I’ll  finish my coffee, then shower, then dab more of the liquid gold onto the growing welts, in the hope that the itching becomes tolerable.

According to a flyer produced by the U.S. Army Center for Health Promotion and Preventive Medicine, I should not wear the clothes I was wearing when attacked by the miserable beasts until after washing in soapy hot water (125 degrees) for at least thirty minutes. For protection, I should wear: long pants tucked into my boots or tightly-woven socks and long-sleeve shirts tucked into pants.  And I should use DEET on my skin and Permethrin on my clothing. It seems U.S. military uniforms are impregnated with Permethrin, which lasts through 40-50 washes; I wonder how I get my hands on a Permethrin-impregnation kit?

Or, maybe, I should just move to the Pacific Northwest, where chiggers are not a thing.

If I can last until the temperatures drop to 60 degrees, they will stop biting me. And at 42 degrees, according to the materials I’ve just read, they’ll die. I long for winter. Cold, chigger-killing winter.

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One Hundred Seventy-Three

When you watch her smile turn into a sneer, you know things have changed. And that’s when you transform from loving friend to unyielding protective shield, a shield with sharp claws and no compunction about using them.

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Thinking with Sad Ears and Fingers

I begin to write this at 10:29 pm on the evening before I will post these words. That’s the time I started writing this post; time will tell when I finish it. As I write this, I am listening to Surrexit Dominus – Tempo Pasquale: Ad Cenam Agni Providi.  Something about this Gregorian chant disturbs me. It is not a calm chant; it is full of energy and chaos. It does not calm me. As I listen to it, I am not happy with it. I want something different. But this is what I have; I have choices, but none I can make at this instance.

All right, I’ve abandoned chant in favor of Los Centzontles playing Voy Caminando.  That’s better. I feel closer to the musicians and singers; they are my people, despite my inability to speak their language.  Now, I continue listening to Los Centzontles, but I move on to Sueños, with Taj Mahal singing. I love it!

So, now I move on to Nina Simone and My Baby Just Cares for Me, then What A Wonderful World by Louis Armstrong.  Then, changing gears abruptly, I listen to Old Number Seven by The Devil Makes Three.  Then, Land of the Bottom Line by John Gorka.  And then to Antje Duvekot’s Lighthouse.

Some evenings, my melancholy can be kept in check only by music; those nights are the ones I think I should have attempted to be a song-writer. I can write the lyrics, as I often do, but the tunes elude wme; I am incompetent with the mechanics of music. Maybe I would have been a good partner to someone who writes tunes; that’s a “what if” I’ll never know, though, isn’t it? Occasionally, the pain of knowing what will never be is more than a soul can comfortably abide. Yet the soul just keeps on going, doesn’t it?

And that leads to what’s on line now. Hey Joe. Jimi Hendrix. “Where you going with that gun in your hand?” And so now I’m back to the real world. The world in which we kill people who don’t conform to our expectations and demands.  Better turn that off!  There’s better music, music better suited to improving my mood, don’t you think?  Yep. “Castles Made of Sand,” another Hendrix piece is better.  But still more ugliness. Crap! Can’t I elude this mood-murdering stuff?

Cat Stevens. Morning Has Broken. It’s a piece of religious music!  Not my style! But I love the tune, I love the words. My eyes cannot remain dry when I listen to it. I melt into an emotional heap when I hear it. I wonder what the hell it is about this music that impacts me so much? It’s raw and powerful; it tears the fabric of my soul. If only I knew what the fabric was; and what that soul is.

The mood has changed!  Memphis in the Meantime by John Hiatt has done it! My melancholy has transformed into something radically different.  I am ready to dance, something I don’t do…ever. I wish I had learned to dance, though. I have always been embarrassed to dance; I’m a clutz. But I think dancing has the ability to fix a broken mood, or maybe even a broken soul.  Some day, maybe.

But then Have a Little Faith in Me, came up, another John Hiatt tune. My mood drifts south a little.

And now, Janis Joplin, Piece of My Heart.  I hate that she died so young. She was a rebel who deserved to live and teach us the value of rebellion. We lost a lot when we lost her. Like we lost a lot when we lost Molly Ivins. I never heard Molly Ivins sing; I wonder, did she? Probably, but not in public.

Okay. I’ve changed gears again. Dejame Vivir by Jarabe de Palo. I love the music, though I can only barely (or not at all) translate it.  And, also by Jarabe de Palo, Depende.

Music has the ability to spread salve over pain. Even when we don’t know what the hell the pain is all about. What is this pain? What pain?  Is it something I’m making up? If so, why? If not, what the hell is it?

I feel like I’m at the bottom of a well, feeling the water flood from the surface down on me, not knowing how to break loose of what’s tying me here to the bottom, but knowing if I can’t find it I’ll drown. Somewhere, in words, there’s salvation. In words there is a path to the surface.

I am relatively certain I’ll regret having written this stream-of-consciousness drivel in the morning.  But I’m scheduling its publication, nonetheless. I’ll be up earlier to write my rumination for the day, so I can stop this from “going to press.” But if I have guts, I’ll let my odd little rant go online as I’ve written it. Maybe, in the morning, I’ll know more about what all this means. I’ve been in front of this screen for an hour. I deserve some sleep. I really believe I do; anyone who’s had to endure these thoughts for an hour deserves sleep.

A night of sleep has cured the melancholy mood. This morning, I’ve re-read a short story by a writer friend and offered comments and suggestions. I’ve been through two cups of coffee. Even though I arose later than I expected to, I’ve been reading and writing for long enough this morning that I know words really are salvation. Words are far better than drugs at fixing what ails you; they target malaise.

 

 

 

 

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One Hundred Seventy-Two

When a person says he doesn’t need your help, the message is clear: it’s not the help that’s unwanted, it’s you. Accept reality and lend a hand to someone who wants it. Everyone who matters will be happier.

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Mind of a Writer

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Seeing

My first memory of my clairvoyance is from my early childhood. I was five years old when I sensed my father’s automobile accident.  As I sat at the dinner table with my mother and my little sister, I suddenly saw the windshield of his car shatter and heard crunching metal. I heard an unfamiliar shriek come from his mouth, then saw him slump against the broken steering wheel. I blurted “Oh, no, Daddy’s hurt!”

I began to cry. Wail, actually. The scene was so fresh and real, it was as if I’d actually been in the car with him. I just knew he had been injured. I tried to tell my mother, but she just said, “There, there, honey, it’s going to be okay. Daddy will be home soon.” But he wasn’t home soon. It was almost a week before he came home, his head bandaged and his leg in a cast.

That first experience tested my mother’s skepticism about clairvoyance, but it didn’t eliminate it. In fact, she didn’t really believe in my ability to perceive events across time and distance until I was eleven years old. She thought my statement, just before my eighth birthday, that the baby Uncle David and Aunt Grace had been expecting would die in childbirth was coincidence. But, three year later, on October 10, I had a vision of a major earthquake. I told my mother about the quake and described the damage it would cause. I told her sixty-seven people would die and that cars would be crushed as the upper deck of the Nimitz Freeway collapsed onto cars below. I remember what she said when I told her what I’d seen: “I hope to God you’re imagining this, Sandro. It’s one thing to have a gruesome imagination; it would be horrible to really foresee such awful events.”

We were sitting in front of the television to watch the third game of the World series between the Oakland Athletics and the San Francisco Giants when it happened.  The pre-game commentary was underway when the screen went blank for a few seconds and then a world series graphic appeared. We felt the quake, of course, but for some reason it wasn’t as bad for us as we’d learn later it was for others. On television, the announcers’ voices could be heard for a couple of minutes against a backdrop of pandemonium. Suddenly, the screen shifted to a television news desk with the anchor, who began describing early reports of damage. She was joined by a reporter who stepped in to say a major fire had erupted in Oakland.

The anchor then encouraged viewers to shut off their gas supply lines. “If you don’t know how to shut off the gas to your house, look in the front of the phone book; it’s described right there in the section about what to do in the event of an earthquake. Now that we know of at least one major fire, it’s important that you take immediate steps to turn off your gas.”

My mother’s ashen face revealed her terror. “Sandro, get the phone book!”

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One Hundred Seventy-One

When you peek into the deepest recesses of your own mind, you’re standing precariously close to the edge of everything you’ve been told to avoid, things too dangerous for adults.

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An Open Letter to the Writer Within

Take a breath and write what’s buried deep down. Write what hurts most and has the greatest potential to destroy you. Reveal things you’ve never told another living soul. Commit to the page experiences you wish you’d never had. Tell of things you’ve done for which you’d trade your soul to undo. Share so much of yourself that you feel alone and naked and afraid of every glance cast in your direction. Bare your desires and wishes and dreams, even the ones you find silly or infantile.  Expose the weaknesses and strengths that drive you. Do all of this so that the rest of us know we’re not alone in our personal versions of hell, that we’re not the only ones who live life as the contemptible bastards we believe ourselves to be.

But if you can’t reveal these things, if you don’t have the strength and fortitude to expose yourself for who you are, at least create characters based on what’s hidden inside. Bring them to life and tell their stories, their full stories, so we can see there are others like us, even if they exist only in your imagination. Write about the monsters, but give them depth; let us see the youthful bully helping a crippled child cross a busy street. But don’t hide his flaws; let us see him shake down someone else for lunch money.

 

 

 

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One Hundred Seventy

Take stock of your wishes and dreams every day, not only for yourself but for those who matter most to you. Never let them grow brittle and tarnished; strive toward them with the fierceness reserved for love.

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Cruising

Yesterday afternoon, we visited a travel agency in the Village.  Then, later, we attended a program designed to acquaint interested parties with two cruises offered under the auspices of the Kiwanis Club.  One cruise, the one of most interest, goes from Boston to Portland to Bar Harbor to St. John New Brunswick/Bay of Fundy to Halifax and return to Boston.

Having been on only one “cruise,” we are novices. Especially since that one cruise was an overnight trip to spend one day in Helsinki (from Stockholm) and then to return. It was on a Swedish cruise line, Silja.  We’re told it is unlike ships of whatever flags that sail in North America. We are novices, but we are interested. We (well, I can speak only for myself, really) have little interest in the nightlife that cruises so often offer. We like the idea of visiting ports of call that offer interesting possibilities. But are one-day excursions into Bar Harbor and Halifax sufficient?

But maybe a cruise would be interesting.  Perhaps, instead of starting with a 7-night cruise, we might want to go with a 3 or 4-night cruise in the Caribbean. We were told of another cruise, one that departs from Galveston, that visits Cozumel and Belize.  Maybe that would be better to start with.

Or maybe a personally-planned trip on our own would be best.  Yet the idea of going with a group, with its potential of enabling us to develop a small group of like-minded folks to do a bit of exploring, has its merits.

Well, enough of that for now.  I’m off to pottery soon, making more masks and maybe a bowl or two.

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One Hundred Sixty-Nine

Abrupt changes in personality are rare. Abrupt changes in behavior are common. When the two marry, that’s the time for either stark terror or overwhelming joy.

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Peeling Back the Veneer

“Your writing is driven by your attitude of personal prestige, an air of disdain for others. It’s stuck in the middle of that unearned sense of superiority you so readily use to belittle the real emotions people feel. You’ve become a bitch with a pen. If you don’t change, your writing won’t change. And if your writing doesn’t change, it will no longer be published.”

Jennifer recalled those words and the force with which they were delivered. Linda’s face had been square and hard-edged, as if chiseled in stone when she spoke them, a huge contrast to the normal soft, roundness so associated with gentleness and love. As she looked in the mirror, she watched real tears roll down her cheeks.

She tried to remember her last real apology, the one she actually meant, but the memory just wouldn’t come. Every recollection was of her practicing her thespian art. Every memory was of artificial contrition meant to assuage hurt feelings that, to her way of thinking, had emphasized the fragility of the egos of weak people.

Linda had been Jennifer’s editor and closest friend for ten years. She had suggested “Dear Jennifer,” the regional newspaper’s version of  “Dear Abby.” The enormity of its immediate success was as much of a surprise to Linda as it had been to Jennifer.

The novelty of the column’s success wore off quickly. Jennifer got used to the celebrity and the growing compensation her writing generated. Her first major purchase, just six months after the first column had been printed, was a new Acura to replace the ten-year-old Honda. The car in the garage now is a brand-new Jaguar.

After ten years of being told she was a genius, ten years of accolades washing over her like a tide of unrelenting worship, it was hard not to believe them. Ten years in the spotlight can change a person. Or, perhaps, ten years can reveal the person hidden beneath the veneer.

 

 

 

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One Hundred Sixty-Eight

Mired in the gumbo of a thousand years of experience, we try to extricate ourselves from the destiny that is as sure as the rising sun.

It’s of no use to attempt to change absolute certainty. If drowning is the only option, there’s  no point in bringing in a firing squad.

 

 

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Creative Glazing

Today has not been much of a day for writing, but it has been a day for thinking and other creative endeavors.  For instance, I raku fired the two masks below today. The one on top was glazed with copper luster number 4; the one beneath with dragonfly glaze.  Last week, I made another one similar to the one on top, but it was not dry enough for bisque firing last week, so it may have to wait awhile for glazing and firing.

I could have done more today, but I managed to leave my pottery/sculpture tools at home this morning, so I had nothing to work with, aside from firing. In two more days, or less, I’ll have an opportunity to make amends.

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One Hundred Sixty-Seven

The phone rang. I glanced at the LED panel. “Club for Growth.” No, thanks, I’ll skip that call. I know who they are. I know they want my money so they can spend it doing things that are contrary to my interests and the interests of every American who is not awash in special interest money.  And they didn’t leave a message.

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The End of Writing Season

Tonight is the final meeting of our local writers’ club for the “season.” We end the club year with dinner at an Italian restaurant.  The evening will begin with the food and then progress to a presentation by the managing editor of the local newspaper, who will talk about interviewing and research for writers. Later, the three winners of a short story contents (including me) will read their stories. Finally, the three winners of the “best first paragraph of a novel” contest (including me) will read their paragraphs.

I understand the summer hiatus, what with vacations and visiting relatives and the like, but that doesn’t mean I like it. Somehow, it seems we’re saying “writing season is over; come back in September when writing will again be an acceptable endeavor.”

Of course, I will not heed the implicit message of the gap; I will write just as I always do.  Today, though, I am not writing much. Today, I am observing the end of writing season.

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One Hundred Sixty-Six

Consider this: attempt to write a friendly conversational letter, carry on a relaxing conversation with a friend, take a walk on the beach, and enjoy a cup of coffee; all within the space of one minute. It can’t be done.

We try to compress too many things into spans of time too short to accommodate them all. We get frustrated when so many things go undone. Perhaps an adaptation of Horstman’s corollary (“work contracts to fit in the time we give it”) to Parkinson’s Law (“work expands so as to fill the time available for its completion”) is in order.

Changing Horstman’s corollary just  a bit gets to the root of the matter:  “Enjoyment of life contracts to fit in the time we give it. Give it all the time it needs.”

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Memories of Home, of New Mexico

This morning, as I thumbed through an old blog I downloaded before I killed it off several years ago (if one can thumb through an electronic document), I came upon a lengthy post about a trip my wife and I made to New Mexico.  Reading the post made me homesick. I don’t know how that is, as I’ve never lived in New Mexico. Yet, in some sense, I think New Mexico is as much home to me as any place I’ve been. There’s something about parts of New Mexico that makes me feel kindred to the people who inhabit the place. I sense that people there, at least some of the people there, are searching for what I’ve been trying to find my entire life. I don’t know what that is, either, but I’m still looking.

Despite feeling a sense that I’m home in New Mexico, I felt perfectly comfortable being a tourist, too.  The following paragraphs, extracted from my lengthy post, brought back fond memories and made me want to return, soon. And they demonstrate my affection for food, don’t they?

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For breakfast our first morning in Santa Fe, we walked across the street to a little coffee shop and ordered a breakfast taco that turned out to be large enough to feed a family of six. Good smells, good food. Very weird clientele, including two young women who used the place as their bedrooms, curled up comfortably in some beanbag chairs, and a surly old bastard who was annoyed with the waitress at the counter when she took our order before embarking on building his elaborate combination of cream and sugar and cookies and whatever else with a splash of coffee. I ordered an espresso that turned out to be wonderful. I wish I’d written down the name of the place.

After breakfast, we wandered along the plaza, viewing artworks and handicrafts and finally made our way to the Georgia O’Keefe Museum. We viewed all the pieces in the museum; while we enjoyed it, we felt like the Kimbell in Fort Worth had done a better job of displaying her works. I’m a huge fan of her work, though, and the short video about her life made the $8/person fee well worth it.

For lunch, we did something very odd (seems to me); we ate in a place called Rooftop Pizzeria, in a newer-looking mini shopping mall on the plaza. As it turned out, it was an exceptional place for lunch. I got a glass of Saint Clair 2006 Sauvignon Blanc (New Zealand) and my wife got a glass of Osborne Cabernet Sauvignon (Spain), both of which were excellent and very reasonably priced. We ordered a thin-crust pizza topped with grilled eggplant, squash, sun-dried tomatoes, artichoke heart, roast garlic, kalamata olives, basil pesto, and goat cheese (on my half). It was out of this world.

As we walked off lunch and tried to avoid being soaked by snow flakes, we came upon a tasting room for Santa Fe Vineyards, a winery in Española, New Mexico. The place had some interesting art on the walls, so we went in and browsed and were persuaded to do the $5 tasting. That, too, was a good thing. Despite tasting a few much-too-sweet-for-our-taste wines, there were some that were incredibly inexpensive and very good. The guy who orchestrated the tasting was young but knowledgeable and he convinced me to try some wines I normally would have avoided, some ‘known’ sweet wines that, as it turns out, are a bit sweeter than most I would enjoy but were good, after all. It turns out he is waiter in his other life. He works at  La Boca, a tapas bar that has been getting rave reviews from the Santa Fe media and, we’re told, the Albuquerque media and beyond. He urged us to try it, saying the chef/owner was responsible for other restaurants in town getting a reputation for serving fabulous tapas. We succumbed to his persuasion; when we got back to the hotel, we asked the consierge to make a reservation for us at 8:00 pm.

La Boca did not disappoint. Here is a sampling of what we shared: marinated catalan olives; alcaparonnes (Spanish caperberries); coriander spiced grilled eggplant w/ red onion chermoula; cantimpalitos: grilled mini chorizo w/ membrillo glaze. I think we had more…but looking at the menu, I cannot remember. I’d like to go back to try the other tapas but also to try their larger-portion meals, including paella which sounded incredibly good.

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One Hundred Sixty-Five

Some decisions are indefensible. They are so blatantly self-serving and so laced with avarice that no apologist can successfully endorse them as reasonable. But we turn a blind eye toward them and stay quiet because it just wouldn’t look right to cause a ruckus, would it?

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Psyched, Somehow

It’s just after 4:30 as I begin writing this. I’ve been up for more than an hour, yet I’m still on my first cup of coffee. Sometimes, I measure my acceptance of the day by the coffee I consume, but I’m not quite sure how; it just seems that I do, occasionally.

We know so little about the challenges that face other people.  In fact, I think we frequently find we don’t know much about the challenges that we, ourselves face. We know we struggle against something, but we don’t know what. We feel we’re swimming against the tide, even when the tide is pulling us like an undertow into treacherous water.

There was a time, when I was younger, that I wanted to be a psychologist. Perhaps that’s not true; maybe I was just interested in knowing more than I knew about psychology, as I still do. But I wasn’t willing to invest the time and intellectual effort to learn. It still fascinates me. The human mind is so interesting.  It is so much a part of us, so close to us every conscious and unconscious second, yet it’s so utterly mysterious, even to those who invested the time and effort to study it. One of the inscrutable aspects of human psychology is the dream, that imaginary voyage into experience that resides exclusively in the brain while the body, and its normal consciousness is asleep.

Unlike many nights, I don’t think I dreamed last night. At least I don’t recall any dreams. Maybe I normally dream later, after 3:30 a.m.; by getting up so early, perhaps I robbed myself of the opportunity to take an imaginary voyage.

This little trip into the mind is going nowhere. I started by acknowledging that we know little about the challenge others face, only to double back and write about myself. That’s something I have to fix; that’s not how I should write.  More coffee? Yes, I will. More writing? We shall see. But not right here, not now. I’ll open Word and see if I can initiate creativity on demand by beginning to write a short story, or perhaps a chapter of the novel that resides somewhere inside this cluttered brain.

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One Hundred Sixty-Four

I am pleased that I’m able to complain about the pain in my knees and my wrists, but I’m not happy that I have pain in my knees and my wrists.  Appreciating the little things requires tolerance of the little things, and even the big things.

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Set-Up Vignette

Epistolary love affairs didn’t have the same ferocity as those conducted in the flesh. At least that’s how Jeremiah Scotland saw it. He’d been involved in both and preferred the latter, as they were more satisfying, in the physical sense. Yet he acknowledged the superior intellectual timbre of the former. Take, for example, his years-long relationship with Marianna Martin, a tall, big-boned woman whose husband, a graphic artist, suffered from macular degeneration. He knew of Marianna’s height and skeletal structure only through their exchange of letters, the same way he knew of her husband’s problems with vision. It was through their correspondence, too, that he had come to understand her peculiar perspectives on love and commitment. Jeremiah knew more about Marianna and the way her mind worked than he ever knew about the ten women with whom he had enjoyed affairs of the flesh. If truth be told, Jeremiah would have said he loved Marianna more than he loved any of his wives or paramours.

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One Hundred Sixty-Three

Electric power is back on, the sun is rising in the east, birds are flying, so all is right with the world.

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Dream Story

Another damn dream.  But this one might have opened up a channel to a plot for a novel.  I intended to write it down yesterday, when I awoke from the dream. But I did not. So I’ve lost some detail that I wish I hadn’t. Such is life.

I won’t go into the now-fuzzy details. Instead, I’ll get right to the plot.

A German man, rearing his one-year-old child alone, is convicted of a serious crime. Before sentencing, he flees with the child, first to Portugal, then to England and, finally to the United States, collecting forged birth certificates for the child along the way. The man quickly blends in to U.S. society, using an assumed name, and (using forged papers, of course) gets a good job. A few years later, he marries an American woman.

The boy is brought up in a middle class household. He does well in school.  Life is good all the way around.  Until the father’s secret is revealed. And the boy’s world explodes.

Because his father brought him to the U.S. illegally, the authorities decide they must deport the boy back to his homeland, Germany.  The boy knows no German and has no known relatives in Germany.  But the law is the law.

A parallel plot story has been taking place all the while, with another man and another little boy with only his father. This man, though, is from Honduras and he has no criminal record. He illegally enters the U.S. and, like his German counterpart, uses forged papers to get a job. He does well in the job market, gets married to a naturalized American citizen who was born in Canada and brings up his little boy as an American citizen. When he is found out, the little boy faces the same dilemma; he is to be deported to his “homeland,” Honduras, where no one waits for him. The law is the law.

The remainder of the novel chases the stories of the two boys and explores how their efforts to fight deportation will encounter radically different challenges based on where they were born.

The story will confront the conflicts between enforcing the law and changing it.

If I pursue this, it will take a HELL of a lot of research and effort to write as an interesting story that’s not too preachy, nor too dull.

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One Hundred Sixty-Two

Fear is both a motivator and a demotivator. If that is true, that must mean fear has no effect on motivation, yes?

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