Author Archives: John Swinburn

About John Swinburn

"Love not what you are but what you may become."― Miguel de Cervantes

Childhood

From the perspective of an adult, childhood is an illusion. It is that imaginary time during which the weight of the world did not bear heavily on one’s shoulders. It is that fantasy in which pain is a frightening and unpleasant … Continue reading

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Eighty-Seven

What is the difference between a response and a reply? Exactly.  And thus I have evidence of subtleties too sophisticated for people like me.

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Connected by a Web of Lies

Well, that wi-fi emergency did not last long, just long enough to frustrate me and cause me to post a brief excuse for being unable to write about my story idea, the one about the guy who goes to bed … Continue reading

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Disconnected by a Thread

It appears my wifi service is down, so I am forced to rely on ATT for access to the Internet on my smart phone. I cannot type fast enough on this tiny keyboard to enable my thoughts to spill out … Continue reading

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Eighty-Six

Kindness is not an automatic benevolent behavior. Rather, it takes practice and repetition. It requires regular exercise to fully develop into a disposition. It seems to me that developing a kind disposition is akin to training a dog; it takes … Continue reading

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Squid Pro Quo

An online video I watched this morning made me very hungry.  If you read the recipe below and like it, know this: if you bring me the squid, I will prepare this recipe and grill it for you. Even if … Continue reading

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Twenty-First Century Technology

While sitting at my desk listening to a storm rage outside, I went online to see what else is happening in the world and learned that a tornado flattened a gymnastics studio and destroyed a trailer park in a Tulsa, … Continue reading

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Eighty-Five

The rumble of distant thunder roused me from a restless sleep. I turned to look at the clock: three forty-seven. A few minutes later, the rumbles became bone-jarring cracks and flashes of blue and white light lit up the room. The … Continue reading

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On Awakening

She woke up considerably older than when she had gone to sleep. Her brother, twelve years her junior, was a fifteen year old ninth grader when she had drifted off that night. He was twenty-two when he announced his engagement, just four days before she … Continue reading

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Eighty-Four

The stories we tell ourselves are mirrors. The stories we tell others are masks. But, sometimes, we confuse ourselves about the audiences for our tales, telling ourselves lies and confiding in people we have no business trusting.

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A Myth in My Own Mind

What does one do for entertainment at 5:00 a.m.?  There are so many options!  I decided to do a bit of light reading, so I brushed up on my classical mythology.  Today’s lesson focused primarily on Medusa, the only one … Continue reading

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Eighty-Three

As I remember, my habit of using sugar in my iced tea was a brief departure from good taste, perhaps a year or less when I was a child. Today, just the idea of putting sugar—or any sweetener—in tea causes an unpleasant … Continue reading

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Skin in the Game

Here’s how it happened: I went looking for the etymology of “skin in the game.” What I found was a set of words that describe some concepts I never knew existed or, at least, I’d never thought about. A word exists, I learned, … Continue reading

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Eighty-Two

The options are to build a bridge, walk across a bridge, or blow up a bridge. Fewer and fewer are willing to build it and meeting someone in the middle conveys weakness. That leaves just one choice.

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Remembering a NYC Visit

I was looking through a billion old photos this morning and came across this one of my wife, sitting in the biergarten at Loreley Restaurant and Biergarten in New York City in the summer (if memory serves) of 2009. We … Continue reading

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Eighty-One

I light a stick of incense and watch the smoke, in a gyrating dance of slow-motion chaos, rise gently and disappear. The smoke, just a smudge in the air, leaves behind aromatic evidence of sensuality and longing, a search for tranquility … Continue reading

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Neighborly Technology

We recently initiated an online community for a large chunk of the western part of Hot Springs Village.  Using a commercial website called Nextdoor, we went through the process of defining the territory we wanted to cover, then slowly began … Continue reading

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A Death in the Neighborhood

A neighbor we’ve never met died recently.  The guy who lived across the street, catty-corner from us, was found dead in his home after police were summoned to do a welfare check today.  His next door neighbors noticed his newspapers … Continue reading

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Eighty

I wonder if my wife would indulge me by allowing me to experiment with shrimp spring rolls for breakfast one morning soon?  I would have to buy some of the ingredients for the rolls (rice paper wrappers, mint leaves and basil … Continue reading

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Scientific Inquiry

The older I get, the more I appreciate the magnificence of scientific inquiry and the more I appreciate its civility. Science and politics are worlds apart, one populated by people who strive to understand the world, the other by a … Continue reading

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Real People

Some days I want to be around real people, people who love who they are and have no urge to become someone else, someone others say they should be. They are the people who move from apartments in high-rise buildings near … Continue reading

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Seventy-Nine

I remember staying the night at a bed and breakfast in the New Mexico desert. It was a stout and stately enclave of faded, cracking adobe and distressed cedar, a place rich with the musical traditions of New York. Owned by … Continue reading

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Fledge

When you were a child, you understood the role of parents.  When you were young, you understood how the world worked.  How did it come to pass, then, that the older you got the less conscious you became of the … Continue reading

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Seventy-Eight

A heavy steel sledgehammer swings with full force, striking a piece of sculpture made of thick strands of gold and yellow and green glass. The glass, woven together in a rich tangle of color and form, is a work of … Continue reading

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Spring in the Village

The unmistakable signs of Spring abound. White buds appeared on pear trees almost overnight. The blossoms of redbud trees, now just barely visible, show promise of a full-on show in short order. Daffodils sprout like weeds, their yellow flowers a welcome … Continue reading

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