Author Archives: John Swinburn

About John Swinburn

"Love not what you are but what you may become."― Miguel de Cervantes

Three Hundred

My vocabulary is not the most extensive, but I try to learn new words on a regular basis. And I succeed. I do not always succeed in retaining my new-found knowledge, though. I struggled to recall the meaning of “obeisance” … Continue reading

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Flotsam

Pauling and Donaway were grilling trout from the morning’s catch over a driftwood campfire, filling the air with the sweet scent of salt and smoke and charred fish. The sun slipped low in the sky. With the last fish off the grill, Pauling … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Ninety-Nine

“What would you wish for if you had but one wish” is impossible to answer correctly. It attempts to force choices where choices don’t belong. Perhaps the only rational answer to the question would be: “I wish I understood everything … Continue reading

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My Indian-Inspired Line of Clothing

Necessity may be the mother of invention, but I claim paternity, in the form of desire. This morning, I’ve been thinking about what I’d do in the way of making clothing for myself if I had the requisite sewing skills (which includes … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Ninety-Eight

It is reasonable to ponder the conditions under which we expect to be happy, but it behooves us not to allow those thoughts to build a cage that excludes us from happiness in the absences of those conditions. Happiness is adaptive, provided some degree of … Continue reading

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Grizzled

The quality of his penmanship had declined since grade school. By the time he started keeping a journal, the only way he could assure himself he could read what he had written was to print his words in a slow, … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Ninety-Seven

My satisfaction with myself may reside in a journey I have not yet taken. The question is whether the journey will be one of space and distance or time and change; or, perhaps, both. And is satisfaction with oneself a … Continue reading

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Writing of Tears

From time to time,  Paulo Coelho’s words come to mind: “Tears are words that need to be written.”  Each time, it occurs to me a slight deviation aligns better with my perspective:  Tears are words that must be written. Coelho’s words were written, … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Ninety-Six

Poetry can swing a hammer just as hard as a trained boxer can throw a punch.

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Hellish Daylight

July third started like most days in Laredo. The sun crept slowly over the horizon, turning hot darkness into brutal, heat-drenched daylight. Estella Garcia woke, steeped in sweat, just as the pink gauze of heat began to fill the sky. Her son, Ernesto, liked to … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Ninety-Five

I have discovered that wishes and dreams—simple thoughts that go against the grain of socially acceptable ideas—can cause tension headaches. Perhaps it’s not the thoughts that bring on the pain, though; perhaps it’s the contemplation of potential consequences of acting … Continue reading

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Dreams Tell Incoherent Stories

My dreams last night or early this morning were long and tangled. At one point, I was inside a mall, listening to someone (an architect I think) tell me about expansive plans to refurbish the place, turning it into an … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Ninety-Four

Birthdays should be mourned as measures of lost innocence. Each tick of the clock is a reminder of the unraveling of the veil of virtue hiding countless flaws. Sixty-two years ago today, the unraveling began.  

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Learning to Love

The brisket I smoked over the weekend was tolerable; disappointing, but tolerable. I should not complain. So, I won’t. How’s that for a surprise?! As I type this, I’m listening to loud and intensive music. Earbuds, of course; my wife is … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Ninety-Three

If the armature supporting the skeleton that’s keeping your flesh from falling to the ground begins to melt, settle for the satisfaction of pooling on the pavement. Fighting battles with yourself that you simply can’t win is wasteful use of dwindling … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Ninety-Two

Emotional wreckage morphs into a shield of immeasurable strength when you exercise control over your own life.

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Home Again, Home Again, or Up in Smoke?

I am smoking a brisket this morning—and for the rest of the day—in anticipation that I will enjoy a flavor late this evening that I have not tasted since I moved to Arkansas. Only a relatively few places in the world … Continue reading

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My Voice

I don’t share my thoughts the way I once did. Apparently I failed to translate my thoughts the way I’d have to do in order for the person with whom I was sharing to really understand. So, rather than suffer through attempting … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Ninety-One

Struggles with oneself pale in comparison to battles with people who want to mold us into someone we were never meant to be. The hardest part of the wars we wage is determining whether we are our best ally our own worst … Continue reading

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Eternity

Between the brief seconds of ecstasy and the extended hours of pain, life delivers a delicious mixture of mundane months during which we come to understand why we love living. It behooves us to remember the long stretches of time we … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Ninety

Some people seek forgiveness for what they have done; others for who they are. The most dangerous, though, refuse to engage in the search, seeing in it only weakness.

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Frost

For ten miles, ice filled tire ruts in the road, making it damn near impossible for me to stay on the highway. When I reached a town, I pulled into the gravel lot of a post office to escape the sleet and freezing … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Eighty-Nine

A few days ago, I read about three young homeless drifters who allegedly killed two people in San Francisco. Photos of the suspects, two men and a woman, caused visual memories to spring to mind, images of Charles Manson. If they … Continue reading

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Recollections: Chilean Miners

Five years ago, give or take a day or two, I was glued to my seat on the sofa, watching CNN News, hoping beyond hope that thirty-three miners in Chile would be brought, alive, to the surface. I don’t know … Continue reading

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Two Hundred Eighty-Eight

My eyesight bothers me. To see distant images requires me to remove my reading glasses; to see my screen and to read, I need to put them back on. Among many other challenges that fact present is this one, relevant … Continue reading

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