Category Archives: Depression

Fog and Mist: People and Countries Get Sick and Die

I learned recently that two friends had heart attacks a few nights ago.  They inhabit opposite ends of the political spectrum, so I can’t blame fear of the nightmare that is about to befall the United States (and the world) for their personal catastrophes. … Continue reading

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A Turn of Phrase

I suspect this is the sixth or seventh time I’ve written about the French phrase, Le jeu n’en vaut pas la chandelle, translated into English as “the game is not worth the candle.” The phrase sums up feelings of depression … Continue reading

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Inching Away from the Edge

Some days—and today is one of them—I wish I could start over. From the beginning. Well, from the time I was in high school. My decisions, my choices, my interests; they would be so very different. I would listen more … Continue reading

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Musings on the Day After the Fourth

Last night, I sat on my deck watching explosions of fireworks in the deep distance and hearing the faint percussive thuds of the remote blasts. The air was hot and muggy, defining July in central Arkansas (and much of my home state of … Continue reading

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Life of the Party

Some people thrive on their reputations, crafted with meticulous care. They seem to believe their own hype, buying into the stories they tell others in their efforts to be more vibrant, more alive, more interesting. I know this because I’ve … Continue reading

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Revealing What’s Underneath

You may not want to read this. Especially if you’re not on a high note at the moment. Sometimes, I just write stuff that can’t help but ruin a mood. There’s no question, I sometimes write some pretty strange stuff. The scenes … Continue reading

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Shreds

His eyes reflect his posturing, that ugly affect meant to intimidate those who would oppose him. Looking deeply into those eyes, though, one sees the abject terror within, the fright that bubbles up from the core. His only weapon—the hatred that rips even … Continue reading

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About Last Night and Tomorrow

Our next door neighbors invited us to dinner last night, along with a couple up the street (at whose house my wife plays cards on Tuesday nights) and my wife’s sister. It was an early event, beginning at four o’clock … Continue reading

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I Think I Understand

There’s so much debate over Robin Williams’ suicide lately; it gets to me.  His death is tragic. His life was a gift to everyone who had the good fortune to pass his way, whether face-to-face or in theaters or in … Continue reading

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Just Moods of Despair

Last night, as I sat in front of the television, listening to music piped in by DirecTV, I felt like a sad loser. There was nothing on television worth watching. There rarely is. So, I decided to listen to what … Continue reading

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Taking Up Space

There are times I feel like I have a dependency, as if I have no control over things my brain craves in an almost physical sense. Facebook. Yes, Facebook.  I swore it off for a while and it was not … Continue reading

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Melancholia

I wonder why melancholy sometimes overtakes us without warning?  No precipitating event, just a rush of sadness that paints everything with a wash of tears.  Vague regrets, unknown losses, and unspoken yet unmet hopes and dreams combine to fill the … Continue reading

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Antisocial

On occasion, I find myself feeling especially antisocial.  I feel utterly disinterested in conversation, in fact completely opposed to any interaction of whatever kind.  Today is one of those occasions.  I have an inkling of what brought it on this … Continue reading

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Ennui of a Deeply Personal Nature

I have not been in the mood to write much of late. but I thought I should post a few notes just to prove to myself that I remain moderately alive. The reasons for my lack of interest in recording … Continue reading

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Damn

Today.  What about today?  Nothing of any real import, but I am not happy about it.  I have not been able to address the world the way the world deserves to be addressed.   Such is life.  That is the … Continue reading

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